i have been eating so much good food recently (:

i had swensons with the Guis, because it's tradition!!!!!! (: <3
jap food with victor and wingyee after our semi private rumba lesson today

and after procrastinating for 2 weeks, i bribed myself and told myself that if i could finish my 1500 word geog essay in 2 and a half hours, including doing journal article research and finding all my evidence, i could go out and eat ikea's meatballs (:

im so easily bribed.

so now im still very full from 10 delicious meatballs, and minestrone soup. hahah (:

anyway, having a lot of time to think, i think humans are so strange, i can be with my partner almost everyday, for hours and hours, dancing together so closely, and officially being in a partnership with everyone knowing that we're fixed partners and teasing us sometimes (btw, the being offical fixed partners is quite important for the emotional side of it, the same way how people need to declare an official relationship status i think) , but even though i have so much fun dancing with him, i look forward to our trainings and i think he's great, both as a dancer and a person, i still only see him as my dance partner.

whereas, i can like someone who totally has no similar interests with me, hardly spends time with me and i liked him so much that when he left i spent a whole sem being sad. isn't that strange???

why is the heart so strange? haha, latin partnership dancing makes me think about the concept of love a lot eh, can draw so many parallels. you can't really help it, the music, and movements can all be described as sensual i guess.

plus the module on love actually also. 3 hours a week talking about how love is constructed. by the end of the mod, i must come up with a formula, and i shall tell u at the end of the sem. unless i get a D for the mod. haha, then maybe i have flawed thinking.

but you see, core values aside, if i try to classify the guys, they all sound the same. they're all quite nice, most relatively cute, all can communicate enough with me,so what makes one different from the other? why does the heart want what it wants? haha, if don't even know what i want, how come i can tell when i like someone. hahah, there's a subconscious checklist that i don't know about in my head!

then how come, if there's a subconscious checklist, how come jess cannot, for the life of her, ever know whether she likes someone or not???

hahah it's too confusing.

jess and i are sticking to our plans of buying a house together when we're old, furnishing it with rocking chairs, and learning to knit, and keeping 20 cats (: