i think im having some dance withdrawal symptoms. so i shall do a very long post on dance.

The next time you look into the mirror, just look at the way the ears rest next to the head; look at the way the hairline grows; think of all the little bones in your wrist. It is a miracle. And the dance is a celebration of that miracle. -Martha Graham


and I shall keep track of the styles i've done:


ballet
i think ballet forms the basis of my dance style since it's the genre i've danced the longest, i like to think of it as my backbone in technical training. most of the time, instructors can tell that i've ballet training just by watching me do my warmups, and they'll come and ask me. sometimes it's good because ballet give u very good fundamental training that's useful in any other form of dance, sometimes it's bad, cos ballet is also very rigid and the techniques are quite expressionless.

"I don't want people who want to dance; I want people who have to dance"-George Balanchine



chinese dance
when i first started this, i kept getting scolded like mad by the choreographer because chinese dance is super fluid and expressive and there's a high importance on flexibility. i think of it as a more expressive form of ballet and it's more fun because it's prettier and less empty i think. (:

"Technical perfection is insufficient. It is an orphan without the true soul of a dancer." -Sylvie Guillium


contemporary
i think this is tough cos it's like fusion, i only do this on and off for productions, so im not very good at it. it's never really a happy dance, always quite emo or angsty or angry, and i always think that's hilarious, and i keep laughing, which is a bad thing. it's good training cos it's very very fast and involves a lot of turning around and jumping up and down,but it involves a lot of bruising too ): ugly knees.

"Those who dance are considered insane by those who can’t hear the music."-George Carlin




social and ballroom
the latest thing i'm trying to learn, it's my first time dancing partner work, so sometimes it's hard to coordinate, and i have problems reacting to a guy's leading sometimes, he'll tell me that i'm doing my steps on my own, instead of responding to his movements. ): i guess there's still a lot i have to learn. but it's really fun too, and partnerwork has benefits that i get to try lifts and stunts that i don't get to do so much when i dance by myself. (: anyway, there're 5 dances in latin: chacha, rumba, jive, samba and paso doble. five dances in standard: foxtrot, waltz, Viennese waltz, tango, quickstep. then there's social dances that i want to learn like the salsa, merengue, bachata etc. currently i'm only doing latin, and a bit of salsa, so learning the rest will take many many many years !!! im excited!

Someone once said that dancers work just as hard as policemen, always alert, always tense, but see, policemen don't have to be beautiful at the same time. -George Balanchine

2010 marks the 11th year of my love affair with dance, and i hope there'll be manymanymany more to come! (:


I’m very excited about dance and love it with a deep passion. I also struggle, tire and become discouraged. But what has always revived me...has been the rebirth of energy each time the creative process is awakened and artistic activity begins to unfold even in some infinitesimal measure.
-Ann Halprin*


lovelove!

real awesome song from dance that's now stuck in my head

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

oh well dance camp is over, it was real fun, and i really enjoy being with the team, and training together and dancing and doing nonsense. but now it's time to start preparing for concerts and competitions again, haha no more doing different choreos for the fun of it, haha, it'll be more serious, and maybe competitive too ):

and i hope no one gets injured!! (:

im real sleepy, im woozy.

ooh, i spun the wheel of excitement again, and the first thing that happened was that i gave sherlinhhhh chickaroo again!!! hahah, oh no!

i am really very very grateful to God for many many things!



1. for the nose on my face

okay, i was very upset over a new zit that came out recently, and i've been obsessing over how un-sharp my nose is and all that insecurity stuff. but then, i saw the time magazine article about a woman who got her nose and ears cut off. and i suddenly realised that perspective is everything. what is a little zit compared to having no nose? ): and i felt really guilty about being so discontented. ):

sorry God. i'm grateful i have a nose, and live in a country where they won't cut it off.

2. for a realllll nice latin dance partner

okay, my partner is really an awesome guy, i always take way longer to remember my steps, and seriously, thank God he's so patient and nice about everything, and doesn't get huffy and mad, because that would make me 10 times more stressed than i already get when i can't remember my steps. haha, and he'll kinda cue me in to what i'm supposed to be doing, and direct me to my position, so it doesn't look as if i'm that lost. (:

anyway, we're dancing paso doble together for the competition, i think it will be fun! (:

oh, and i don't know why, but perhaps its the culture of latin dancing that guys have to be very gentlemanly. they are the ones to invite the girls to be their partners, and at the end, they'll say thank you. and it's all very nice (: I like it very much.


3. i found the perfect red outfit!


went with jess to buy a beautiful velvet red dress, and i've paired it with golden hoops, golden chain belt and golden heels, and i really love the royal effect! i've been thinking about making this outfit come true for a long while, and now it has!!!! (: at low budget too (:

4. those functions my dad gets invited to

I love love love love love going to these formal functions that my dad goes to, and i go too on my mom's behalf. haha, i love having an occasion to dress up for, i love all the refined food they serve at these events and i love going to posh places. and together, they create such a surreal, magical feel, like everything else fades away for a little while. i was even awestruck by how pretty the restrooms were, and how they provided scented body lotion in there, and nail filers and all the nice stuff!


ok that was a long entry, but wow, i have many things to thank God for!!! it's almost Christmas, and it's His birthday, yet, He's giving me presents instead!!!!



lovelove

To those who have had no agony Jesus says, “I have nothing for you; stand on your own feet, square your own shoulders. I have come for the man who knows he has a bigger handful than he can cope with, who knows there are forces he cannot touch; I will do everything for him if he will let Me. Only let a man grant he needs it, and I will do it for him.”

-The Shadow of an Agony

we went to walk along the railway lines today!!! (: it was surprisingly great fun (:










the rest of the pics are up on facebook! (:

it's been a nice holiday! i just spent like 3 hours playing with my dolls with my sister. hahahah, we took out all the dresses, and horses and carriages. aiyo, im not 9 or 10 anymore leh, i'm 9 PLUS 10 now ): hahah


i don't want the holidays to pass so quickly, the weather is great now, not too hot, not too cold (: i can wake up all snuggled in blankeys and not be sweating like crazy and be so sticky

ok i got distracted playing neopets ! im a neopets MILLIONAIRE!!!!!!! yay!!!

Chris Rea- Heaven

I see a turning wheel
On a dusty track
Caught in the void and empty space
In between there and back
And the paradise of going somewhere
That's still so far away
Happy, boy you bet I am
Holding on to this smile for just as long as I can


It's all bright in front
And it's all dark behind
Livin' for the now that's in between the bridges and the signs
And getting there is still a long long way to go
While the others dream and wish
This is everything I officially need to know
Happy, boy you bet I am
Holding on to this smile for just as long as I can

I am horribly bored of studying geog for the last paper tmr ): memorising Nevado Del Ruiz case study again for the hundredth time i think ): after all, SOMEDAY volcanoes must come out right??? haha




Thought of Jess and the nonsense we did at evolution bio lab!!! (: surveillance mouse ears!!




can't wait to GRADUATE!!!!!





okay, that was fun (: i discovered how to play with the webcam! (:

lovelove

2 hours till exams! and here i am doing nonsense. i have the worst studying habits in the world. and after A levels, it doesn't feel as scary. anyway, its open book today, so i feel less scared. but maybe when i see the terrible questions then i might get scared. haha.

2 more days till holidays! Christmas is waiting for us! (:

haha, we just had our second latin performance yest, at grand hyatt! the juniors did chacha again. wow, i love hotels, the place was so posh, and when we were inside i felt like it was a different world! haha then when we stepped out to go to far east and buy food, then we felt like we were back in reality. oh well. haha, and we totally regretted eating so much fried food when it was time to lace up our corsets.

anw it was really fun, and the crowd was really responsive,but a bit wild and it got a bit weird when some ppl followed us out and started taking pictures and kept staring.

but it did make me think a bit, and i was really glad to be talking to a fellow christian, and we was wondering aloud what we would do if one day we had to perform jive, the dance is real cool but the costume is not much more than a bra with micro shorts. it would be so hard to say that we don't want to perform it because of the costume, but at the same time,i don't think i could bring myself to dance like that actually ):

well, we're not learning that anytime soon, so i don't have to worry about it, but i do think that , i really really really need to remember to honour God, and think about what i'm doing and not blindly following. Ah, i am so glad for my christian sisters there. it's so much easier to forget about honouring God when you're alone.

anw, so i guess it's a good thing that i'm understudying to be in the committee to do make up and costumes, so hopefully, i get some say in what the costumes are like! (: haha


anw, everyone is getting all these post performance blues cos we've no training for 2 weeks i think. hahah, im glad that for once im not the one getting all emotional about it. i don't think i could handle missing more things. i feel like a cool cucumber now. hahahah

but anw, im glad i chose to join this (: it's really fun, and the people are great (:

ok back to linguistics, lovelove!

oh my goodness, i just peeked at my trash can, and i realised what a pig i've been, eating NON STOP!!!!!! cookies, and milk, and more biscuits, and sweets. oh my oh my. i've not been feeding my brain with linguistics notes, i've been feeding my face!!!!! hahahah


and i've been coughing like mad, i think i must have coughed myself some abs, just that they're still hidden because of the junk food covering. haha.


after exams, i want to go shopping!! and meet up with friends, and watch movies, and sleep and be lazy! ok la, already lazy, so lazier. haha.

(: can't wait! just 2 more weeks (:


lovelove

wow, time passes super quick!! it's the last week of semester 1! next week's reading week, and then, exams, and then! HOLIDAY!!!!!! (: haha, i am so looking forward to holidays! i think i have dance 5 or 6 times a week during hols, but hey, there's still gonna be a lot of time to play! (: (: (: i can't wait!! (:

and best of all.... JESS BUDDY IS COMING HOME!!!!! :D

i miss my buddy so so so so much so here are some very nice friendship quotes (:

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things. ~Author Unknown

There are big ships and small ships. But the best ship of all is friendship. ~Author Unknown

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson


anyway, i think... that i'm actually quite glad to have joined latin. because it's such a small group, and we train so intensively, it actually feels like a team... and maybe cos we have performances together, so it feels like we're working towards something together, and that feels nice (: even though it's such a drag to go for training sometimes.. (: but overall, it's fun, and i feel like i'm learning something new all the time, so thats cool (:

and i have french oral tmr, and french finals on thurs, but i don't feel like studying!!!! hahah

sigh, let the weeks pass quickly!!!

first latin performance today (: all dance performances are special but since it was my first latin one, it was extra special. (:

as always, the make up was cake-thick. and when we put on false lashes, half my world was covered, but oh well, it was fun (: oh, and we spent like 3 hours putting on make up and doing hair for a 2 minute performance. hahah

well, here's a pic of us junior girls (:

well, i just wanted to say, God's really cool.

whenever i think, like, really really think about how much God loves me, it's just too much. i feel really blown away.

why does He love me so much!!!!
just because.

anyway, just a random thought. i really liked what esther was sharing that people don't belong to you, and they never will. You can't own friends, or lovers, or family, or husbands and wives. that's a really cool thought. i think we all sort of know that, but we act as though we own them anyway. haha. They all belong to God, and we never really learn to love them properly if we're busy trying to keep them. that's pretty cool. esther is cool, soo wei jie is cool too. (:


but God's the coolest!

Demain, dès l'aube


Demain, dès l'aube, à l'heure où blanchit la campagne,
Je partirai. Vois-tu, je sais que tu m'attends.
J'irai par la forêt, j'irai par la montagne.
Je ne puis demeurer loin de toi plus longtemps.

Je marcherai les yeux fixés sur mes pensées,
Sans rien voir au dehors, sans entendre aucun bruit,
Seul, inconnu, le dos courbé, les mains croisées,
Triste, et le jour pour moi sera comme la nuit.

Je ne regarderai ni l'or du soir qui tombe,
Ni les voiles au loin descendant vers Harfleur,
Et quand j'arriverai, je mettrai sur ta tombe
Un bouquet de houx vert et de bruyère en fleur.


-Victor Hugo

怎么了,你累了,说好的幸福呢
我懂了,不说了, 爱淡了, 梦远了, 我都还记得
你冷了, 倦了, 我哭了

你不等了,说好的幸福呢?

Somewhere out there, beneath the pale moonlight

The Most Beautiful Heart

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared - "How can he say his heart is more beautiful?" they thought. The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears." "Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?

"The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side.

- Author Unknown

Did you ever talk to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love.
Pray in Jesus’ name believing
that God answers prayer.

Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Ev’ry tiny little fear He knows.
You can know He’ll always hear
And He will answer prayer.

You can whisper in a crowd to Him.
You can cry when you’re alone to Him.
You don’t have to pray out loud to Him;
He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak, He’s there.
In a meadow by a stream, He’s there.
Anywhere on earth you go,
He’s been there from the start.

Find the answer in His Word; it’s true.
You’ll be strong because He walks with you.
By His faithfulness He’ll change you, too.
God answers prayer.


Lord, I love You very much, and I love You anyway

I turned my head, and you gently slipped away...

Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush. Hold it too loose, it'll fly.
Author Unknown

So the little prince tamed the fox. And when the hour of his departure drew near--

"Ah," said the fox, "I shall cry."

"It is your own fault," said the little prince. "I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you . . . "

"Yes, that is so," said the fox.

"But now you are going to cry!" said the little prince.

"Yes, that is so," said the fox.

"Then it has done you no good at all!"

"It has done me good," said the fox, "because of the color of the wheat fields."

WHY ENGLISH IS SO HARD TO LEARN

We must polish the Polish furniture.
He could lead if he would get the lead out.
The farm was used to produce produce.
The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
The soldier decided to desert in the desert.
This was a good time to present the present.
A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.
When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
I did not object to the object.
The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
The bandage was wound around the wound.
There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
They were too close to the door to close it.
The buck does funny things when the does are present.
They sent a sewer down to stitch the tear in the sewer line.
To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
The wind was too strong to wind the sail.
After a number of injections my jaw got number.
Upon seeing the tear in my clothes I shed a tear.
I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.
How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

i havent't posted a word post for a while!! can't believe its already week 6!! it's mid term already! but for once, i'm not saying 'it's already' in a bad way. this is meant is a 'yay' way!! hahaha, yay, its week 6 already, hurry up and be week 12, and we can have term break. hahah

and it'll be december, and jess will come home, and we can all have christmas party!! hahah

lovelove

make me stay... say something sweet and tender and untrue, and make me stay

but since when have i listened to myself?

I spent money shopping again!!! But... it was fun to shop and have dinner with esther and jess!!! (: lovelove!

It wasn't nails that held Jesus to the cross, it was love.

wherever I walk, Lord, walk with me

You know why we should be thankful for this beautiful day? Because, somewhere, someone's having a sad one.

it's only been 9 days since my last blog entry! haha, wow, 9 days passes really slowly. haha, but time in general seems to pass really quickly. its half way through august already. and dreadful September looms ahead.

as a random thought: it's nice just to know that jess is still in Singapore.

Thank God for lovely people like esther, who has the amazing ability to make me feel better by just being there. and all the lovely children church kids and ministry people too (:

the two things that still really bring me joy are the kids in children's church and dance.

sometimes the co teacher will kind of scold the kids for being disruptive and asking me to let them sit in my lap and be cuddled. but really, i think that sometimes, i need the hug more than they do...

children are really wonderful... i guess i don't know how else to put it. but on days that i come really tired, or really sad, they have a way of getting into your heart just by giving you a big hug, and they make me feel like things might be alright again, and they make me feel loved. I think, they're a huge blessing to me, and sometimes being around them helps me get through another week. <3 my darlings.haha oh man,i don't even think that children's church is like a ministry to me. hahah, i think i get blessed by them more.

hahah, thinking back, i don't think i was ever such a sweet kid ah. aiyo, so sad. hahah

and well, dance is always nice. and i'm really glad to be in c dance again, for the next 4 years (: things are looking alright for me since a lot of those with c dance experience didn't join. hahahah. haha, the seniors are really nice and people are generally friendly, well,i i get a nicer vibe from c dance than from the other 2 dance groups (:

and i guess dance takes your mind off things.

we danced to this music yest.

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you


ah. it was a nice dance. with a nice song and nice lyrics.


lovelove!

my first day at hall!

well, its alright really, cept that i brought the wrong type of moisturiser ):

esther and jess buddy came to visit me today (: it was real nice (:

lectures were alright too, quite light material, nothing heavy, and no homework. (: hahah

and i was so amused at my speech convergence patterns again today. hahah (:

actually, i have nothing much to say, just that its so boring here and so quiet too. hahaha, but i cant go and sleep when its only 10!!!

lovelove!

i got all my modules without too much of a problem, so i get to read some nice modules this sem (:

geog, sociology, english, biology and french (: doesnt sound too terrible, and doesnt sound math-y at all.

kinda want to start school proper soon, to have some kind of routine again i guess, plus its getting boring doing nothing at home. hahah

officially moving into hall on tues i think!! hopefully i won't be packing my bags and trying to sneak home by wednesday! haha

lovelove!

well, i guess im finally at NUS, and its a reality. hahah, took me long enough to realise that ah.

module bidding tmr. haha, i really dont feel excited abt NUS at ALL.
and honestly, i dont feel very excited or very happy abt my scholarship either. i feel really terrible to feel like that too, because, its so... ungrateful...

but it feels more like a burden to me than a blessing. with all the requirements they impose on me, and im afraid that i'll find geog at uni boring, haha plus they want us to do certain modules that i was so planning to skip, like GIS systems, and fieldwork. haha, and everything i do, i have to ask for approval from them, before i apply for my student exchange, if i wanna do a minor in something else, if i wanna apply to a special term...

and i have to clock up a number of modules for english on top of geog, so i cant do electives i like.


and of course, the number one fear that i'll somehow get myself kicked out because i dont make the grades or something. and it'll be so embarassing, i'll never live it down. hahah.



and i dont like my new school very much anyway. sigh.

seeing a familiar person or hearing a familiar voice is like a breath of fresh air nowadays.

as my friend said 'too many new people is killing me.' hahah



Dear Lord,

I think that i have been a little tired, and a little sad. i think i could do with a little help in getting through the next 3 years. but that's a long time away. for now, i think, i could make do with a hug. and just so You still know, I love You. goodnight.

love,
shermine

whoa i just put up so many pics on fb i amaze myself! haha, xiu should be proud of me for uploading! haha, im the first to upload this time!!! faster than xiu and jess :D hahah

anyway, children's church was sweet as always (: its a good thing i joined really, if not i might be even more sad to leave my pathlight darlings. haha

lovelove!

Goodbye love.

wah, just thinking about going back to school is very tiring already. haha, tried to familiarize myself with the mapping modules system and the bidding system today, and tried to find out what exactly I must take to graduate, the number of modules to take each sem and also must tie in with moe's requirements that i take 4 modules of english besides doing geog. hahah, i got more and more confused!!

haha, i think i finally figured that i must do abt 5 modules a semester, which is kinda like JC then, since we had 5 subjects. hahah, so not really just doing geog la, haha, still can do english, and prob some languages, or sociology or something. haha, thats pretty cool i guess but the only thing really exciting is NO MATH! forever and ever and ever!!! hahah

but really, i have nothing to look forward to the next half of the year, hahah,everything is such a disaster now, my best buddy is going far far away, things are not going well with him, im actually quite sad, awww, but as my mother told me this morning:

In every thing, give thanks to the Lord

not FOR every thing, but IN everything. haha

haha, ok, im very tired from thinking, and from reading pages and pages of small font on NUS stuff.



I shall just trust God to open and close doors as He wills, not as I want Him to.

though... its really really hard, im struggling so so much.
0:
but anyway, I still love Jesus best!


lovelove!

):

been extremely free these 3 days (: but its nice to be this free, i finally got down to watching princess and the frog! which is really cute (: haha, and watched michelle phan make up videos.

great news that MOE cut OBS to three days instead of four!!! the whole room cheered so loudly and i was so amused. hahah

but with obs, hall camp and orientation camp looming ahead, it still causes a sinking feeling in my stomach! ): and im a teensy weensy bit nervous about my new room mate... haha, doesnt feel real that im not going to have my lovely room soon. and my wardrobe is also a headache. hahah


and really, now that im so free, it leaves lots of time for horrible 'daymares' and i keep imagining life in the second half of the year and i get real miserable... ): hahah and i thought of the song 'wake me up when september ends' but then that means i don't get to send them off. haha okay i think don't want, change to 'wake me up when they all come back!!!' (: haha




): X 10000000



anyway, my dad just came back from france, and with all the pretty pictures, chocolates and stuff he bought for us, i was reinspired to read some french! so i dug up my french textbooks and started relearning my grammar and stuff. haha, i kept smiling to myself cos i remember some of those lessons when we did those particular passages, and there're all the underlined remarks where we wrote down meanings for phrases that can't be directly translated word for word. hahah, and there were pages i remember trying to memorise the entire page, like the page listing all the food, or the different clothes or something. hahah (:


oh man. im going to miss them.




lovelove
sher

haha, i finally declined my UK offers today ):

i realised that im actually still quite sad about it. i think i kinda forgot about it with all the recent new stuff to think about that already overloads my mind!! but recently they keep sending those 'pre departure' emails, and i don't think i can take it anymore if they keep sending, so i better decline already!

haha, well, i packed away all the application stuff, but still couldnt really bear to throw away the UK letters and all :p so they're all still sitting there together with my NUS stuff.

and I actually wrote kcl a short thank you email, hahaha, even though it probably just adds to clogging up their email system.

Well, I'll just have to see what plans God has in store!! (:

retreat was nice, and so was G2 youth camp, i especially liked marshalling the different games stations with diff ppl everyday, cos it was a great catch up opportunity with people i haven't talked to for a loooong while! (:

was nice to go back to pathlight yest to help make those milk carton things! haha,ended up with glue everywhere and ruined my carefully painted nails, but its okay, it was fun anyway (:

lovelove!

tmr's the last day of pathlight!!! ): i will miss my buddy at work, haha but i think i will still see her at school in future, cos as we said, we have no other friends in FASS!! ): hahah

well, time to clear out and clean out the shelves in the library workroom that currently hold my markers, and her umbrella, and seaweed crackers, stickers, and all sorts of nonsense that we've left there for ages and didnt take out. hahah, and return TC's earmuffs to the teacher.


ah. it's really over, 5 months is gone just like that! ): the best part of the year is gone!

and we gotta go back to school and oh gosh, jess buddy and i were talking abt uni stuff yest, and its just too horrible a thought!



well, i guess before the horrible school starts, i am excited for retreat!!! with jess buddy!!! haha, actually i don't know anything about this retreat, no idea who's speaking, or what the theme is or where we're really going. haha, i just know that if both jess and God are going to be there, then it's just going to be the best retreat! (:


lovelove!

oh no what am i going to do, i miss my PP kids so so so so so much already! maybe it's just the knowledge that i won't see them again that makes me so sad. I have all their voices recorded on videos, so whenever i miss them, i play the videos again and again. and when i see their cute faces and hear their cute voices, i feel like smiling and crying at the same time. haha

hahah,and i recorded so many of OO's songs that i should just help him produce an album. i'll be his number 1 fan. haha, there's this particular clip i really like where OO got distracted by my filming him, and he laughed out really really cutely and said 'let's see O sing!', with the biggest, brightest smile in the whole world. hahah, it was like all the bells in the sky ringing, just like in the little prince.

oh my, i miss them ): like josh said, haha i must be addicted to kids! hahah, and of course i'll miss the kid i work with the most! even though he didnt even want to hug me goodbye, haha but i'll still miss him so terribly much.

5 more days with the kids at pathlight ): what am i going to do, i'll miss them so so so so so so much!! ):

i can't imagine having to go back to school and be a student again, haha, and not having so much free time to meet people and learn new things and play games. hahah, i really got used to the relaxed lifestyle! hahah (:

i've been taking lots of pictures and videos of my darling kids, so that i can see their cute faces and hear their voices when i miss them... hahah..

guess there's some consolation in having to study locally, haha when i'm free i can go and see the pathlight students!!! (: haha, the downside is that i have to go for OBS and stay in uni hostel for a year as part of the MOE's requirement! ): but then, the worst thing is still that jess buddy is prob going overseas ):

it's okay! God's still cool, and always, God be praised.

hahah, for some reason i dreamt that i woke up late and missed church service tmr, and I was real sad! haha, it must have been cos I feel so cheated about retreat!!!!

aiya, now the school has cut short the internship and I actually CAN go for retreat this year!! and its the first time that jess and i can go together! ): and now if i don't even have school to take my mind off it, i'll be thinking about what they're doing at retreat!!! ):

anyway at music and movement class last week, one of my cutey pies tried in vain to open the heavy door. haha, so he stepped back, looked at me and said 'open sesame!'
hahahaha, aiyo why they so cute. haha can't take it already.


and we took some class pictures, and they really love having their picture taken! haha, when i counted 'one, two, three' they all dashed forward to see the picture taken, and i was trying too tell them 'not yet, not taken yet!' hahahah so cute, they love looking at their photos!!


lovelove!!!

Dawny cheng is probably flying over russia or tibet or greece now on her way home to NY!!! going to miss her to the MAX!!! ):

it's ending soon, but i think that these few months after A levels has actually been very very nice and enjoyable. Jess buddy and i have already developed an even slower pace of walking that we attribute to the good life we're enjoying now. free to go out and play everyday after work and no need to stress about exams or do homework. haha, so nice to be able to meet friends all the time (:

and work has been very fun too mostly, with all the lovely friends and kids. we only have 2 weeks more in class support i think, so after that we wont see the darlings anymore ): gosh, i will miss them so much too! and when pathlight ends in june, i'll be so free i won't know what to do. haha, and i'll be missing all the yfa friends! ): but im not really looking forward to the last 3 days, cos angelina is not going to be there!!! pp track will be too lonely! ><

haha but as one of the student said when angelina asked him if he will miss us, "life goes on, I gotta move on!" hahaha, very philosophical ah. :D

and then, uni's starting ): and we gotta do work again, and if jess buddy goes overseas... gosh.... im starting a daymare again. haha..

lovelove!

I just got really drenched in the rain!! haha, I looked like I just jumped into the swimming pool, and my clothes were actually dripping water! hahaha, it was the best fun i've had for a while!! (: I could hardly see a thing cos my hair was blowing all around!

this is a good news week for all my buddies!! I'm reall happy for them!! (:

reall happy for xiu!! i think xiu will be so cool in sports science!!

anyway, i dont think he'll read this, but i'm very grateful for josh!! its great to see God work in him and through him, and i'm just so glad, i keep smiling (:

can't wait to see jess buddy at smu tmr!!! (:



lovelove!!

oh dear, i was so lonely today in school! Angelina was sick! ): nobody to greet the SAF with me, and no one to sing silly songs and do nonsense! haha get well soon!!!

luckily, there were still all the little darlings and cuties (:

aiyo, after so long i still don't have anything else to say. haha but i have to post anyway, cos linh's blog is more alive than mine now!!

i just had such a wonderful shopping trip! (: and it was real nice to have dinner by myself too. in school, i have to try to be so aware, to watch what the kids are doing,and make sure nothing happens to them! so its nice to just sit there and daydream, and not really pay attention to what's going on around me or even what im eating. haha i probably even sat there for a while with my mouth open and just dreaming. haha, cant even remember what i was thinking abt, prob something really random

even though the kids are the cutest,i'm glad its friday tmr! tired already! haha, will be exciting to meet pastor tmr too!

lovelove!

im glad to be back in school!! (: with my storyteller buddy and all the cutey kids (: poor angelina had to tell so many stories all by herself!!

today my class form teacher was absent, so i took the kids to recess myself and brought them to see the new hydroponics pond. oh big mistake. they were all so excited and running and one kid actually stood inside the pond on a box. i half screamed and grabbed him out immediately before he fell off and into the pond. oh gosh. i marched them all off to class after that. oh gosh, good thing nothing happened!!!

lovelove!

i've spent my whole weekend sitting in front of the com thinking about what to write for my essays for apps! gosh, its so tiring to think about what to write. and everytime i take a break and come back to it, i cringe on reading what i wrote, then i delete, and i start again. haha, it'll take me forever. gosh. i should have started this way earlier!!

anyway, i think i've been on vacation from ministry for quite a while, and some of the big leaders are checking up on me! haha, its quite funny really (: but anyway, i'm going to meet the children min's pastor soon, and i'm actually quite excited i guess (: more cute kids! no la, i think my school kids will always be the cutest (:

and, i really want to go for retreat, cos jess buddy actually can go this year!! gosh, and i'm the one who can't go. well, i guess jess buddy can keep a retreat diary for me this year.

anyway, last week there were a lot of teacher MCs in school, and we got to teach a couple of lessons on our own. and it was actually really nice supporting my intern friends when they taught. cos i think they work really well with the kids, and its cool to observe them too (:

i'm typing such a nice long post, cos i really don't want to go back to my essay!


anyway, we found out that we'll be sticking with the same class until june (: which is a really nice thing. cos doing library is fun too, but we don't get to interact with the kids as much during library as in class. haha (:

anyway, one of my kids is super adorable, last week while doing gym, he was singing 'i'll have a blue christmas without you'. haha, a tiny 6 year old mite singing that while jumping, doing stretching, aiyo these kids make me smile everyday. (: but when they're naughty, they're also really naughty. haha

anyway, angelina and i have been doing so many dumb things in between library lessons. haha, we both successfully learnt how to french braid!! using each other for practice of course! (: it's really not bad, just that my braids a bit uneven only!(: and we made invitation cards for some of the other interns, and we learnt a new song! (: its all been real fun, haha, im real glad she's never taken MC before, if not i'll be very lonely in school and have to eat lunch by myself!

ok, talking about school makes me excited for tmr, even though last friday was quite terrible! (: we're making new puppets tmr! (:

lovelove!

haha, my dearest little kids are so cute. still calling me 'ms shermina' haha (: and today when my contacts hurt a little, i decided to take it out, since my eyes were very tired anyway. and when i wore my speckys, my kids came and asked me why i was wearing sunglasses, and told me to take it off! haha such cuties seriously. (:


anyway, post As has been better than i thought. i thought i would be so so sad with the kind of results i got, but i wasnt really that sad after all. anyway, i didnt think too much about it after i got the results, and just trying for what i can, and just letting God do the best for me!

oh anyway, one of my 6 year old kids loves looking at a girl from another class. hahaha, i cannot resist teasing him, everytime i catch him doing that, i'll always ask him 'where's ur favourite girl?' haha, then he will keep giggling and say 'she's so cute!' hahaha(: haha aiyo, they're all such darlings.


i know i keep saying it, its prob irritating already, but I LOVE MY KIDS!!!! (:

hmm, my method of telling if it will rain the next day has been proven wrong today. I always look at the sky before I sleep and if they sky's really dark, i'll think its going to rain or at least pretty cool the next day. But if it's all orangey red against the buildings and not completely dark, it's supposed to be hot the next day. so it was real red yest and it rained. i got really drenched today walking home from school.oh well, rain is nice anyway.. and it is kinda fun to get so wet and dripping and my whole face was wet. i must have looked frightful, but it was fun.

ahh i realised all my pink coloured background is gone, so i changed a new background! supposed to be grey dancers, but i think it is too blur to see, haha anyway a change from pinky is good too right! (: but the font is a weird colour, but i dont know how to change so it shall be this until something goes wrong! (:

lovelove! (:

Noella sent me something real sweet today:

Give us Your strength Lord, because sometimes things are tough and we are ready to quit.

Give us Your love Lord, because sometimes people reject us and we are tempted to hate.

Give us Your eyes Lord, because sometimes life gets dark and we lose our way.

Give us Your courage Lord, because often we are put to do things under pressure and its so hard to do what's right.

Give us Yourself Lord, because our hearts were made for You and we will not rest till we rest in You.






this whole year feels like its some kind of transition year and not really a proper year. that doesnt sound very coherent, but cos everything's like temporary and i don't know what i'm doing long term, it feels a bit funny. not like haha funny, but odd kind of funny...


haha, but my kids are sweet as always... one of them said 'I love you ms shermine!' so sweet ah, haha and one of them ran up to hug me today. oh and one of the kids i was attached to last time asked me if i would like to join his class today. aiyo they're all so exquisite and each one is so special and lovely. from the young ones to those who are about our age, they're all so unique, and there's so much to learn from each one of them... (:

its quite tiring to say so much everytime someone asks me abt my internship, so i always say the kids are cute. but they're much more than cute. a hamster can be cute too. but my kids are so beautifully and wonderfully created... (: sometimes they're funny, sometimes they're sweet, sometimes they're just so naughty and exasperating (:

i love them lots lots lots lots!!!


lovelove!

today i was scrolling through facebook pictures. i really miss my straight hair ):

i just had to change my hairstyle cos i was bored, but now i really really miss it!!!! ): i guess i had to try it once, if not i'll always be wanting to perm, but i think i won't ever ever do it again! haha (:

and i think i miss my rj school uniform!!! skirts are so much more cooling! wearing pants everyday now to work is very suffocating and makes my skin itchy too! poor guys!

and i miss all the funny things we used to do together in school! haha sandwich making!!

but i think i miss my uniform the mostest!! i dont believe i am actually saying this but i miss not having to choose what to wear everyday, and not bothering about dress codes cos everyone looks the same!!! haha

but anyway, my kids are still cute, and i've still got great supervisors and colleagues (actually, dont really feel like colleagues, more like friends doing projects together! haha)
and our project is still going okay! (:

and God is still cool, i think i have been very blessed to get this job, and very blessed too to get these fun project assignments.

lovelove!!

I love love love my kids in school!!! (:

they're the most adorable bunch and if they actually make eye contact and say hi to me or remember my name, I feel so happy! (:

like today, one kid was being a little naughty and running around, but then he spotted me, and he stopped suddenly and waved a very cute little wave before continuing to run around. okay,that doesnt even make sense abt why i'll be happy at that, but i was so happy and grinning away to myself.

and when i was with my class kids, one of them pointed to the lift and asked me why students cannot use the lift.
i said' cause you might get stuck inside!!'
he then opened up his palms to show me, and said 'but i'm not sticky! I won't get stuck!'

hahah, so cute!!!! (: love them to bits


of course there're also sad things that happen... but its okay, cos the kids are not very responsive to facial expressions, so even if my eyes are a bit wet, they wont really notice. haha, still so cute ah. (:

and since starting this job, i changed my mind, and i decided that maybe...

little boys are cute too!!!! haha (:


lovelove!

i'm really sleepy... haha not getting used to waking up at 6 plus again to go to work...

i was all excited to work, but i kinda want holidays again. haha, and... i almost want to wear school uniform again! haha, its too difficult to fret everyday about what to wear and stuff. haha, the ppl there are really nice and all, and the kids are reallll cute. but there's this scary non disclosure form that we had to sign, so i don't dare to say anything!! (: haha

anyway, i pass rj everyday on the way to work. haha, i miss ms ng!! (: and i miss 5B too!!!