finished followup with xinying!!! so proud of her! (:

and my com has absolutely died from virus attacks and has been sent to my cousin's house for repairs and now I am using my dad's laptop, but i keep forgetting and typing on the wrong keyboard! which is quite funny really, cos i keep typing and nothing comes out. haha!

ooh, christmas has come and gone, and school's starting!! ahh!! haha, homework's all undone!!

and keep going brave jess!! I love you lots lots lots!!!

christmas is coming!!! (:

and back from my holiday, which in my opinion was quite a disaster. oh well. haha

and met my RAGS cell girls today. found out that they stand for Running After God Spontaneously

SIGH. haha, well , i'll say that they're really not what i expect they were, and i can see that it's gonna be a challenge. first of all, to catch all those who're MIA, which is like half the cell.

I can't bear to give up my RIP cell, I think our cell has really grown to be a lot more bonded and open to each other, and all of them have grown in the Lord, some by a lot, some by a little. There're some girls who've grown so much, from not really attending cell last year, she's now going to be a CM next year,and I know she's ready to CM the sec ones. She's really special to me, for some reason, and I am going to miss her a lot!! (even though I think she doesn't know it!)

oh well. I'm sure God has a perfect and pleasing plan for me in G2. but I still wish I can stay in G1. Ahhh... I've been telling everyone that i'm excited, but i'm not!! I'm going to die missing people. ahh.


on a good note, I heard rhema was really awesome and many people were blessed by the service, the pastor, the skit, the games etc (: so proud of my buddy (: and all the people who put in lots of effort for rhema!!

and also we had a really fun party for linh linh!! who's actually 18! but looks 12! haha, so funny that she didnt know she was bein tricked when i told her i was buying a christmas cake for my aunt when i was actually buying her birthday cake! and she didnt ask more when i told her we needed to go get a worksheet in school from daryl! haha, and when i told her to walk the long way in instead of the shortcut!haha,she's so funny!! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINH! We love you! keep growing in the Lord!

I am blogging so much these days, linh will be proud of me! haha

hmm, so sleepy. and i'll be sailing off on mon, but because dance has been changed to a later timing,i'll get to miss dance on mon too! -smiles secretly-
hahaha, but i have to train on my own i suppose, since i got the music now! haha


will miss everyone lots and lots! and will be praying for rhema!


a whole week without a phone though!!! ):

I LOVE MY RIP GIRLS!!! AHHH I. AM. SO. SAD.

sigh... only now that it's the end of the year and i have time, do i actually get to talk to some of them a bit more. but it's the end of the year, which means that we dont have time together anymore. and i really really want to stay and continue to help them grow! SIGH SIGH SIGH. i am so sad. i love my cell girls so much!!!



I THINK I AM MISSING G1 ALREADY

AHH...


but, I'm sure g2 will be just as cool, since God always has a perfect and pleasing plan. :D

and I want to thank God for all my wonderful wonderful wonderful little (okay, not very little) cell girls for all their attentiveness, and for staying with the cell faithfully, and for all the sharing, esp the few girls whom i got to spend a bit more time with. (:


I thank God for every single one of them, and my really cool co CM! :D

i love RIP'08!!! I pray that we will really be Resounding In Praise!! today, and everyday!

love love!

Today was a great day! :D

did followup with Xinying and Leican joined us too :D nice and early at 9. 30 in the morning. it's so cool to see what they've been learning, and I was really encouraged by the way Xinying took notes everyday while reading the purpose driven life book that I passed to her. :D so exciting! i was so excited for her! :D and leican was telling us about her ISLE vietnam trip! so cool that she learnt so much stuff through one trip! :D

and then I met adora for kind of a round up of the cell year. and my only regret is that we didnt do this sooner! ahhh!! it was the nicest time of talking to her I remember!

AH! I am so going to miss my cell, and G1. ):

But... even with all the bad news around, God is still cool!!!

back from leader's retreat at st john's island!!!

it was really fun! though i said that i don't like camping, but it was really fun, and we stayed in dormitories! which looked like orphanages and military hospitals, but it was a nice feeling of community living, which i really liked! and there were a lot a lot a lot of big BUGS! i saw 3 cockroaches in a go when linh and I called andrew tham! and other weird big bugs that i can't even name! and the bathroom was quite cool, the wall in between the bathing cubicles was not full length and linh and i could see each others eyes! so weird! haha, so we put a wall of soap and shampoo in between us, and the water was so cold that linh screamed so loudly! haha!

and the treasure hunt game was very fun! Tiffanie, Cheryl and I were the cool group of all-girls and we were the smallest group, cause we didnt want to merge with other groups! (: and we all happened to be wearing havaianas! but it was so fun, course we just kept laughing and laughing at everything, and kept disturbing the committee to give us clues! but they were all so nice, and really helped us A LOT!!! giving us clues, and helping us take all the difficult to reach clues! oh, and they came to walk us all the way to the stations at the end and brought us to find all the stuff. So gentlemanly right!!! we were so touched. oh and cos we were supposed to take pictures of animals like cats, chickens and crocodiles on the island, our group took random pictures of the swamp and pretended it was the crocodile! and we told everybody that we found the crocodile! haha, and the three of us kept laughing and laughing! so fun!

and besides being fun, it was very meaningful. It was wonderful at powerpraise, where we really spent time tarrying in the Lord's presence. and pastor Ronald got all the key leaders to pray for every individual in the room. and they were really in tune with the spirit, because what they prayed for was what really weighed on my heart, even though we never told them. and as mel fam was sharing, suhui jie prayed for a back injury on her back that has been bothering her for a long time, and the cool thing is that mel never told her tt before. so cool! God is cool! and I am really sure that the Lord wants me to move to G2. and I guess it comforts me a little, because when the Lord is for us, who can be against us right? (: haha, but still, i'm going to be very sad to leave. I think i will cry. sigh.

and one happy thing... go andrew!! haha, so glad that he has the joy of the Lord! It makes me happy too!! haha (: it's just wonderful!! (: next year, Linh, Ngan and Andrew are all going to join jess and I in serving as cell mentors!!! How cool is that?? haha, Linh and Ngan are not even one year Christians! but the 3 of them have all grown so much in the Lord! it makes me smile inside thinking about it!

hahah, i just had to blog to say that I miss nov/dec 2006!!! it was really the best dec hols and christmas season of my life!! I was reading old blog posts and laughing so hard at how crazy and dumb jess and I were!


I MISS so many things!!

1. i miss doing crossroad with the naughty kids! and trying not to kill lester everytime we came in with stinky gym shirts and leotards!

2. i miss scream cell!!

3. I kinda miss cheerleading and gym pracs now, for some reason. I only don't miss doing conditioning. haha, but i miss jumping tramp!

4. i miss those few months of cazy saturdays, when i had cheer in the morning, gym in the afternoon and ballet in the evening, all back to back! haha, it was crazy but fun!

5. i miss my pointe shoes, the pair i painstakingly the toe piece for ): especially when I see other dancers dancing on pointe. ): i miss ballet a lot.a lot. a lot.

6. I miss christmas choir!!! hahaha, and off pitch singing!

7. and reading old posts, imiss FAM prom committee! hahah, everything was so funny! paint fight while painting banners!

8. and... breaking into paul's house!


okay, i really got to go! love love!

workplan retreat tmr!!

NOT looking forward to camping! but it will be fun spending time with linh! (which we hardly get to do anymore because she's so busy in the physics lab!!!) and also, spending time with my co-CM and my cell girls who will be graduating to be CMs next year! and there's a beach! which should be kinda nice. I am most worried about the cockroaches but maybe there wont be any, since they can't swim to the island (I hope!!!) I am going to be a tortise carrying such a big haversack to church tmr! BUT, it's going to be real cool being with the church people, and the pastors, and it will definitely be fun praying by the beach instead of on my sofa! haha, and catching the vision for another year of ministry! :) and I hope I get to know some G2 people, so that I won't be a sad lonely CM by myself when I shift to G2 next year!!




anyway, I am pretty excited for rhema now, but I won't get to go!! I am going to be on a ship with no handphoene connection, and i can't even find out anything abt rhema until i get back a week later!! AHH! but i am still so excited, i want to go for rhema!!!!


and i got started on one and a half christmas cards!! not bad! (:

bye!

just back from jess's house! (she claims its the first time i've been there this year) jess and corn were doing rhema stuff, and i was helping them count money and items for the traders game. haha :D and we packed jess's room! Her messy things are stacked sky high!!! and we found lots of stuff that we thought was lost, like her original i/c application form, and a lot of random things! haha,we found a few pages of her harry potter book lying around but i still didnt find my lost book ):

and I went for TCM again today, but i insisted no accupuncture needles today. It still HURTS! ):

ooh! and i bought nice christmas cards! and I saw this really sweet elderly couple who were choosing christmas cards together! so cute! haha, and the lady was telling me about how the cat on the card cover looks just like her cat at home. haha :D old people are quite cute sometimes :D and i realised that it's december already, the best month of the whole year! i am so excited for christmas! It's baking time!


and... i miss my classmates already!!

This is seriously a disaster!!!!!


the dance laoshi wants to change dance to wednesday afternoon, which will clash with service and cell at G2!!!


OH NO!!!!


How???

A really nice poem that I found, which is how I feel now too!

I SAID A PRAYER

I said a prayer for you my friend,
That your struggles would soon end.

That you would feel God’s peace with you,
As you trust Him each day through.

I prayed that you would feel His love,
Rain down on you from up above.

I asked Him to take care of you,
Fill you with joy and laughter too.

I prayed that He would let you know,
That He will never let you go.

That He’d pour blessings down on you,
And make your grey skies turn to blue.

I prayed that God would give you rest,
And that He’d answer your request.

I asked the Lord to touch your soul,
Fill you with hope and make you whole.

My friend I prayed that you would feel,
His gentle touch reach down and heal.

I said a prayer for you my friend,
My best wishes to you I send.

Nancy Burr
London, Ontario

phew, dance these few days are so tiring!! my waist is going to break from all that bending and twisting. and somebody knelt so hard on my ingrown toenail foot! and I almost screamed. it's super painful, ouch ouch!! and my right leg and wrist are hurting all over again!!


and jess and I decided that we werent suitable to do cross road ministry within like the first 15 minutes of reaching there. haha, they're all little boys who like to play xbox, and we're on totally different wavelengths!! so jess came up with acronyms. RTIMI which stand for 'resign today, I mean it!' hahah

okay, gonna sleep! so tired, just got back from my uncle's chalet! goodnight!

linh jess and i went to the campus crusade book sale today after pw! and goodness we went one big round to find the place. haha, we got off at some busstop and realised we were lost so we took a cab to the original store and then realised that the location of the warehouse was actually opposite the busstop we got off from!!! so we had to run in the rain!!! ):


and i read this in my new book



forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.




sigh, which makes so much sense. but i am still so mad!My head was smoking and my ears were burning!!!!): haha such a linh-like sentence!!

chinese A levels tmr!! :D really touched that some people remembered and wished me luck when i didnt expect it! haha

went for lunch with classmates today at botak jones and it was really fun! i can't believe today was the last day of school already, am gonna miss my classmates SO much during the hols ):

then jess came to my house to watch she's the man. haha, it's super duper funny, couldnt stop laughing, the actress is really cute everytime she forgets that she's supposed to be a guy and starts gushing about shoes or something. xD

and my cell girls are so cute, and i was really encouraged that all three of them who came for service last sunday responded to altar call!

got to start studying!

i hope chinese will be over soon!!! it's quite torturous, but i'm trying my best not to sleep! cos lao shi is really nice, and everytime she looks at me, i'll pretend to nod or something though my eyes were going to shut. hahah. (:



verses of two different versions of in Christ alone, both really nice and really meaningful

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone my hope is found; He is my light, my strength, my song;
This cornerstone, this solid ground, Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace, When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My comforter, my all in all—Here in the love of Christ I stand



I havent typed out my soccer comm meeting minutes!! oops!!


anyway, now that i'm so free, been thinking about the people whom we used to see in church but arent anymore for various reasons. and it's really really sad. and i don't know how to help. ): Because there're so many hurts, disappointments and broken hearts that only God can heal. all i can do is to keep them in prayer that they take their heart and all their hurts to Jesus. sigh, it gives me this deep sense of heartache when i see that there are so many hurting hearts and crushed spirits. ):


Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to your people
As we draw near
Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are your people
Crying out in desperation

something really sweet today. :D we were having cell worship, and i think it was so sweet of ruth to handwrite really neat copies of the worship songs for the whole cell. haha. i think it was really touching that she would do that :D

and read 'a face for me' today which is about a girl born with extreme facial deformities. and the first time she saw her face was when she was 8. and it was so sad. but she was really brave and I dunno how she got through life, and still put her trust in God. it's really amazing. i don't think i'd be as brave as her at all. ):

back to school tmr! school's fun cept for really really boring chinese. and i didnt even do my homework. oops!

ah finally this webpage works! :D

been having lots and lots of fun in school now that promos are over!!

1. lunch with LLL (lousy lazy linh!!!)

haha, linh bought a HUGE ice kachang + ice cream after eating a whole bowl of ban mian at food junction!! and of course LLL couldnt eat half of it, so much ice and ice cream that the ice cream at the top of the mountain of ice fell off when i pushed it a little! haha, and we had a really nice time talking about stuff that we could remember happened since january, quite funny! linh took extremely long to remember who her first friend in class was, and we were naming the people we could remember seeing on the first day of school, and we replayed in detail the day linh jess andrew , i and mr chong went to SAJC concert! :D

2. marche!

our raja block dinner! the place was SO cool! the marketplace concept is just awesome, haha, it's so cute, I think jess and I are going there with esther soon! :) and linh and I bought ice cream for tat chern because we lost our screaming and volcano bets haha. :) and there're so many plans for more outings with the class during the hols, haha really excited!

3. prayerwalk in school

prayerwalk was really good! shiao, jess and I didnt exactly follow the map of the school but we more or less followed the way the way we did it at karimun missions. :) we only managed to cover raja block down to the canteen and the tennis courts, but it was really nice praying together and hearing all the insights. really cool :D and when we went back to the LT2, we had a great time of worship and heard people share about visions, and plans. really cool! hope we'll get to go again next friday after OP dry run. :D

4.

oh! the way andrew looked so puzzled when he got a call from the school service centre was really funny! and i think the receptionist lady must have been so shocked when he actually asked her if it was a prank call :) so funny!!

5. Christmas is coming :)

yay! once my sis's exams are over, we're gonna put up the christmas tree! haha :) so exciting, my favourite time of the year, haha i've even started on my christmas to-do list, and getting cards out to write to people :D haha, christmas brings back all the best memories, especially those spent in grace assembly

-the christmas services,
- everyone in church exchanging cards, cookies, hugs etc
- that really warm feeling of us all being a family of God
- the year jess and i joined christmas choir! and all the singing off-pitch, jess kicking off my shoes , laughing when johann asks us to sing. haha :D
- and the time jess sang 'poco rit' which is the music symbol for slowing down or something. HAHA cos she didnt realise it wasnt the lyrics!! I can't think about that without laughing! so funny!!
- and best of all, celebrating Jesus's birth together! :D

such a special day! I can't wait (:

6.

I bought 'i kissed dating goodbye' and the author is really really inspiring. I tried to summarise the book, but it's kinda hard, haha, but it contrasted the world's view and God's view about love and all sorts of friendships, relationships etc. Love is not what you can get but what you can give :)

and can't wait till november when campus crusade's going to have a 30% storewide discount, and we can go and get some of the great books and I think that if jess linh, ngan and i combine our books, we can have a mini library soon! :D haha

7. Jess and I sneaked into boarding!!!

haha, it was so scary running past the gate, into the building, and up the stairs, and we met linh's senior who was one of the tutors, luckily she didnt mind or else we'd be dead. haha, we jumped everytime the cleaner came and we read aloud a few stories from linh's books and looked at linh's clothes haha so fun :) jess tried hiding under a table, but it didnt work!

8. rhema

rhema's round the corner too! i really hope i can make it back from hols in time for at least one day of conference! i got to go be jess buddy's and corn's biggest fan!! hahaha :)

I think I've convinced everyone to go go to malaysia after all! so it wont be so far and so long and we can come back by 16th dec in time for the second day of conference :) quite funny for me to be digging out brochures for beach resorts in malaysia and showing my family how great the sea looks hahaha :) will be fun!









and this is a great story that I'll think about it each time i'm dont feel like spending time with God alone, and it just touches my heart each time I read it.

Table for Two

by Kirsten Burgess

He sits by himself at a table for two. The uniformed waiter returns to his side and asks, "Would you like to go ahead and order, sir?" The man has, after all, been waiting since seven o'clock--almost half an hour.

"No, thank you," the man smiles. "I'll wait for her a while longer.

How about some more coffee?"

"Certainly, sir."

The man sits, his clear blue eyes gazing straight through the flowered centerpiece. He fingers his napkin, allowing the sounds of light chatter, tinkling silverware, and mellow music to fill his mind. He is dressed in a sport coat and tie. His dark brown hair is neatly combed, but one stray lock insists on dropping to his forehead. The scent of his cologne adds to his clean cut image. He is dressed up enough to make a companion feel important, respected, loved. Yet he is not so formal as to make one uncomfortable. It seems that he has taken every precaution to make others feel at ease with him. Still, he sits alone.

The waiter returns to fill the man's coffee cup. "Is there anything else I can get for you, sir?"

"No, thank you."

The waiter remains standing at the table. Something tugs at his curiosity. "I don't mean to pry, but..." His voice trails off. This line of conversation could jeopardize his tip.

"Go ahead," the man encourages. His is strong, yet sensitive, inviting conversation.

"Why do you bother waiting for her?" the waiter finally blurts out. This man has been at the restaurant other evenings, always patiently alone.

Says the man quietly, "Because she needs me."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Well, sir, no offense, but assuming that she needs you, she sure isn't acting much like it. She's stood you up three times just this week."

The man winces, and looks down at the table. "Yes, I know."

"Then why do you still come here and wait?"

"Cassie said that she would be here."

"She's said that before," the waiter protests. "I wouldn't put up with it. Why do you?"

Now the man looks up, smiles at the waiter, and says simply, "Because I love her."

The waiter walks away, wondering how one could love a girl who stands him up three times a week. The man must be crazy, he decides. Across the room, he turns to look at the man again. The man slowly pours cream into his coffee. He twirls his spoon between his fingers a few times before stirring sweetener into his cup. After staring for a moment into the liquid, the man brings the cup to his mouth and sips, silently watching those around him.

He doesn't look crazy, the waiter admits. Maybe the girl has qualities that I don't know about. Or maybe the man's love is stronger than most. The waiter shakes himself out of his musings to take an order from a party of five.

The man watches the waiter, wonders if he's ever been stood up. The man has, many times. But he still can't get used to it. Each time, it hurts. He's looked forward to this evening all day. He has many things, exciting things, to tell Cassie. But, more importantly, he wants to hear Cassie's voice. He wants her to tell him all about her day, her triumphs, her defeats....anything, really. He has tried so many times to show Cassie how much he loves her. He'd just like to know that she cares for him, too. He sips sporadically at the coffee, and loses himself in thought, knowing that Cassie is late, but still hoping that she will arrive.

The clock says nine-thirty when the waiter returns to the man's table. "Is there anything I can get for you?"

The still empty chair stabs at the man. "No, I think that will be all for tonight. May I have the check please?"

"Yes, sir."

When the waiter leaves, the man picks up the check. He pulls out his wallet and signs. He has enough money to have given Cassie a feast. But he takes out only enough to pay for his five cups of coffee and the tip. Why do you do this, Cassie, his mind cries as he gets up from the table.

"Good-bye," the waiter says, as the man walks towards the door.

"Good night. Thank you for your service."

"You're welcome, sir," says the waiter softly, for he sees the hurt in the man's eyes that his smile doesn't hide. The man passes a laughing young couple on his way out, and his eyes glisten as he thinks of the good time he and Cassie could have had. He stops at the front and makes reservations for tomorrow. Maybe Cassie will be able to make it, he thinks.

"Seven o'clock tomorrow for party of two?" the hostess confirms.

"That"s right," the man replies.

"Do you think she'll come"" asks the hostess. She doesn't mean to be rude, but she has watched the man many times alone at his table for two.

"Someday, yes. And I will be waiting for her." The man buttons his overcoat and walks out of the restaurant, alone. His shoulders are hunched, but through the windows the hostess can only guess whether they are hunched against the wind or against the man's hurt.

As the man turns toward home, Cassie turns into bed. She is tired after an evening out with friends. As she reaches toward her night stand to set the alarm, she sees the note that she scribbled to herself last night. "7:00," it says. "Spend some time in prayer." Darn, she thinks. She forgot again. She feels a twinge of guilt, but quickly pushes it aside. She needed that time with her friends. And now she needs her sleep. She can pray tomorrow night. Jesus will forgive her. And she's sure he doesn't mind.

yay! promos are more or less over! :D hmm, and God really brought me through this year, but i'll save it for another post!

and it's so weird not to be seeing for a week all those who studied together everyday at raja!

went out with xiu, linh, and jess to city hall after physics paper on thurs! :D haha, it was really fun, we went to toys R us where we looked at all the toys we used to play with. :D and we watched mamma mia, where we all died with laughter everytime the people burst into song, haha, linh and jess were practically rolling around!

and I met pastor cx on the train home, and I said really loudly 'hi pastor!' and she turned around pretty shocked and went 'sshh!! my name is cui xian!' hahah, she's so funny :D

and i love the music video for love story!!! taylor swift's so pretty and the song is so fairytale-ish :D linh barry and I wasted all tat chern's ipod battery listening to these songs while studying for physics! haha :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4xmxb9K8RI&feature=related

love story

we were both young when i first saw you
i close my eyes
and the flashback starts
im standing there
on a balcony of summer air

see the lights,
see the party the ball gowns
i see you make your way through the crowd
you say hello
little did i know

that you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
and i was crying on the staircase
begging you please don’t go, and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess
its a love story baby just say yes

so i sneak out to the garden to see you
we keep quiet because we’re dead if they know
so close your eyes
lets keep this down for a little while
cause you were romeo i was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
but you were everything to me
and i was begging you please don’t go and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you be the prince and i’ll be the princess
its a love story baby just say yes

romeo save me, don’t try to tell me how it feels
this love is difficult, but its so real
don’t be afraid we’ll make it out of this mess
its a love story baby just say yes,

I got tired of waiting
wondering if you were ever coming around
my faith in you was fading
when i met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

romeo save me i’ve been feeling so alone
i keep waiting for you but you never come
is this in my head, i don’t know what to think
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

marry me juliet you’ll never have to be alone
i love you and thats all I really know
i talked to your dad you’ll pick out the white dress
its a love story baby just say yes
oh, oh, yes
we were still young when i first saw you

and this one is really sad ): but really nice too

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7DRtl6CTqc

Teardrops On My Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I need everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

hmm, while i'm supposed to be thinking about promos, i'm thinking about my cell... or rather cells haha well, both RIP 07 and RIP 08.

haha. sigh. i really miss our Cell Mentor last year mel fam!! haha, ahh... our cms nat and mel werent always around for cell, but i really really miss them. we had a really great cell! we were all one BIG family!!







Ah! i really miss RIP 07 SO MUCH!! and our lovely room where we would put dividers to make the guys side keep quiet, and all the sharing and cell worship, and how nat would always bring hotdog buns to cell for breakfast,haha and the couple of times the entire RIP trooped down to botanic gardens or went to tanglin macs! haha i miss it all really really much. and jess and I were so cool to compose entire poems and songs for each cell mentor and cell leader of RIP! there were so many of them! daniel, nat, mel, joong yan, david leehe and our RL en en!! :D

everyone's doing different stuff now, some of us J1s are CMing other cells, some are still in RIP! and our dear CMs last year have graduated too, to cm and join other cells. haha, but it was really a great year!


and now it's almost time for some of my RIp 08 cell girls to step up and take their own cells next year, oh man.. i'm gonna miss them. ): but really excited for them too! i'm sure they'll learn lots more CMing than being a member and not forgetting my very first cell at grace assembly!! SCREAM 06! haha, they're the most amazing cell ever!! It was what made jess and I want to stay on at grace assembly in the first place. :D love them!! and it seems like such a long time ago! (scream 06)





oh no! I'm missing SO many people! from church, and everywhere else!!

my new favourite song!!

haha i wanna catch the movie after promos!! the songs are SO good!

mamma mia

Ive been cheated by you since I dont know when
So I made up my mind, it must come to an end
Look at me now, will I ever learn?
I dont know how but I suddenly lose control
Theres a fire within my soul
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much Ive missed you
Yes, Ive been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go.

Ive been angry and sad about the things that you do
I cant count all the times that Ive told you were through
And when you go, when you slam the door
I think you know that you wont be away too long
You know that Im not that strong.
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much Ive missed you
Yes, Ive been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, even if I say
Bye bye, leave me now or never
Mamma mia, its a game we play
Bye bye doesnt mean forever

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much Ive missed you
Yes, Ive been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go
Mamma mia, now I really know
My my, I could never let you go

had cell yest with linh jess and andrew!!! was really nice and quite heartwarming and they were all really open with struggles. and my conclusion from cell was that heart knowledge is more important than head knowledge.

Compelling reason will never convince blinding emotion
-Richard Bach

and therefore we need A TICK IN THE HEART!!!

haha, love them 3 so much!! :D

and thinking about it I'm real glad that my weird combi of bio lit econs geog was rejected haha, or I wouldnt be in this great class or have these great classmates!

We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him.
Romans 8:28


and this is the verse that we copied out for our secret friends!! haha

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always hopes, always perserveres. Lover never fails.

1 corinthians 13:4-8


hmm, I remember pastor ronald telling us to take out all the 'it's and replacing it with our names and see how many we could fufil. hmm, we have so much to learn about what love is. :D

goodnight!

it's raining SO heavily! and the wind is blowing so hard we can hear the howling! I love it!! :D my favorite kind of weather, it's really dark outside except for the lightning flashes :D

and I got this from an email about cool art! a guy did this for his girlfriend! He asked everyone living in that block to switch on or off their lights at 8pm! so sweet! hahaha, but someone forgot to turn on their lights in the middle of the 'i' row!! haha xD so funny, one missing space

















oops! was supposed to do PW not blog!!

hello everybody!

sow and reap was really cool! The saltshakers were so wonderful and the everything went really well I think! :D so proud of my jess buddy! and hopefully there'll be lots of follow up to be done! yay!

and I found a really nice CD by bread!! with all those nice old songs like 'if', 'aubrey' and 'goodbye girl' !!! haha :D my favourite songs for now!

and I caught fox and the hound on disney channel just now, I can't watch that show without crying buckets. ): it's just too sad. and poor me and my sister were wailing our eyes out when the hound was gonna kill his best friend the fox. ): oh goodness. ): I think I'd like to name my future pets Tod and Copper too. :D

Tod the fox and Copper the hound! they are just too cute!!

on another note, I really love the 'lifehouse everything skit'. haha, type tt on youtube and watch it! The saltshaker cell is real cool, being so united and doing a fabulous job at rehearsing so hard and planning for the sow and reap! am really excited to go watch it! and see my jess buddy perform too! of course, most important will be the sec 1s and 2s coming!

after much procrastination and constant bugging from jess to watch it, I finally did, and it really touched my heart :D It's very different seeing someone acting as a tangible God.

and I'm glad that He listens to what my heart has to say, It's easy to say that God loves us, but i hardly think of how much He does. but, I've been realising that God doesn't just love us, He LOVES us! hahah :D and tt makes me really happy, all the time!!! and I really love my book 'captivating'. It's so uplifting, and it really does cover much of what matters to me.



God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

I think I said this before, but it makes a lot of sense to me again today :D

it's the end of term three! and this year's really been so fast that it's just whooshed past!


and i am just about gonna give up on my experiment. haha, after seeing jess's 100% success rate in getting the entire saltshaker cell to put 'I love the saltshakers' as their pm on msn, i decided tt RIp can do it too! but oh no, haha, looks like its not gonna work out.

hmm, school's been fun especially all the night studying with the class! and buying dinners from j8 and s11 everyday. haha, so fun, wonderful friends make me feel like going to school even though the terrible promos are coming up! haha.

while studying, we've...

1. learnt vietnamese from linh-a-linh! doi qua!

2. got scared by andrew who likes to creep up from the back!!! ( but it's so funny when it's linh he's scaring! haha)

3. had our prayer spot marked out with a yellow paper that got faded with the rain

4. bet on a piece of bread that the 2 people walking home from school were dawnprawn and her 'qin ai de'. which i lost sadly. ):

5. started our 40 days of prayer and studying plan!

6. Implemented FIP (fabulously intensive plan)

7. sang the song 'deeper' with terribly wrong lyrics

8. watched tatchern and daryl drink ban mian soup with a straw!

9. got scared by a lizard!! that andrew CARRIED right in front of jess!!

10. accused linh of being 'zhong se qing you'! haha

tt's all I can remember for now!

and I got to see corn's mice again! brownie and cookie are really adorable :D

oh and met up with lester to find out tt my wonderful Friends And Girlfriends of the soccer team's ministry has more or less been disbanded before I started work on it. haha, and seems like I was ever the only proud member of the FAGs. haha xD so sad.
okay! goodnight!


and goodbye

sigh

):

EXPLANATION of God by an 8 yr old

It was written by an 8-year-old named Danny Dutton, who lives in Chula Vista, CA. He wrote it for his third grade homework assignment, to 'explain God.'

EXPLANATION OF GOD:
'One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grownups, just babies I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way he doesn't have to take up his valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers.'

'God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times besides bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because he hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in his ears, unless he has thought of a way to turn it off.'


'God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting his time by going over your mom and dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have.'


'Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista . At least there aren't any who come to our church.'

'Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work, like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want ! to learn about God. They finally got tired of him preaching to them and they crucified him But he was good and kind, like his father, and he told his father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said OK.'


'His dad (God) appreciated everything that he had done and all his hard work on earth so he told him he didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So he did. And now he helps his dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important for God to take care of and which ones he can take care of himself without having to bother God. Like a secretary, only more important.'


'You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time.'

'You should always go to church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God!


Don't skip church to do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway.'


'If you don't believe in God, besides being an atheist, you will be very lonely, because your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know He's around you when you're scared, in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids.'


'But...you shouldn't just always think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and he can take me back anytime he pleases.

And...that's why I believe in God.'

oh goodness so cute!!!

anyway, had dance CIP today, teaching dance to kids in childrens homes. haha, this little girl is called joey! and she was my dance budy for the day. haha xD isnt she cute? :D

haha, she was not cute at first, being an absolute sulky kid who was so shy she refused to let go of her friend's arm and i almost had to pry her off her friend. and she absolutely refused to dance, looking so miserable and pained, and she wouldnt move a limb at all and i didnt know what to do with her! it was only after i decided to give up trying to make her to dance hip hop with me and went to sit down with her (although feeling so terrible and dreams of being a psychologist or social worker flying away) that she started talking!

whoa! it was a total change in her attitude. haha, she became so playful and so sadly told me that she likes dancing but there're so many people. haha, and after talking to her, she warmed up a bit more and she suddenly became cute. and we had such a fun time dancing lindy hop in the end, and she obviously loved it when it came to the jump step where i picked her up and she jumped as high as she could. haha, her laughter was so lovely. and after dance, we ran around for a bit with her friend rachel too. aww, she's really cute. sigh, i want to see her again. i didnt get to find out why she's been in the children's home for close to 2 years i think. hmm, and i still hope to work with kids like that in the future, i think it'd be really worth it.

and i finished both the REALLY nice books that i bought at campus crusade with ngan, linh and jess :D haha, the book 'captivating' did wonders for my soul, really. it was so refreshing. yep yep, its really amazing that some people can put stuff like that in words. haha

okay, its a nice and long enough post! goodnight!

UNFOLDING THE ROSEBUD

It is only a tiny rosebud,
A flower of God's design;
But I cannot unfold the petals
With these clumsy hands of mine.

The secret of unfolding flowers
Is not known to such as I.
GOD opens this flower so sweetly,
When in my hands they fade and die.

If I cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?

So I'll trust in Him for His leading
Each moment of every day.
I will look to him for His guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.

The pathway that lies before me,
Only my Heavenly Father knows.
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose.

Posted from Sermon Fodder

such a really really nice poem!

had cell lunch today, well okay, only 2 of the girls could make it, but it was really nice, having lunch, eating ice cream with them and talking about stuff like what they wanted in life and the future. haha :D love them lots and lots and lots!!

always very glad and touched when they're so brave and respond to altar call! even though i get nervous and all about praying :D hahaha, yay! i love my RIP girls!!!

one more week is over!

been studying with linh and jess these few days, quite productive i guess, and pretty fun!

yucks. dance tmr.

i am the biggest procrastinator in the world man, keep putting off things i don't want to do or even think about. terrible. it's just tiring to even think about it.

and i think i shall shift this blog soon

goodnight.

i went to the cemetery today to visit my late grandma. it's really interesting to look around actually. there really were all sorts of people buried there, from babies, to teens, to adults, to old people. and there was this really sad grave where two ppl were buried, one sister and one brother. The sister was born in 1997 and died in 1998. The brother was born in 1999 and died in 2000. It's must really have been devastating for the parents man :(

the second batch of karimun trippers are there now! oh man... karimun blues! i miss little ian, the church workers, the everything actually, except the toilets and the hot weather. haha :D

school's starting. :( good thing i have some stuff to look forward to after exams end! like going to get pets with Corn! and hopefully meeting up with the karimun trippers again! :D yay!

havent posted proper posts for a while, but here I am! with lots of things to say! :D

God is AMAZING!!! have been super happy these few days. it's not the kind of joy that fades away after a while. haha, it just seems to bubble up again and again. and i feel like jumping around when I think about all the good things He has done recently that really, is ALL by His grace and the pouring out of His favour on us.

-big grin-

and i am so encouraged by the people who have been sharing these wonderful experiences with me. haha they overwhelm me with their love for Christ and their passion for people.

Jess buddy for being my most wonderful encourager, in terms of words, and in terms of the way she lives out her life for Christ. It all warms my heart always. :D I am SO proud of her and I pray that God's favour be upon her and bless the work of her hands always :D

Linh-a-linh for having the most amazing childlike faith I have seen for a long time, it is really really a precious faith, precious beyond words.

Andrew for encouraging me too with His willingness to step out of His comfort zone so quickly and readily! How many people join mission trips within a month of joining the church? :D amazing!

for my dear dear friends, Joshua, David, Corn. :D for all enriching my lives in very special ways that i treasure lots and lots and will remember always :D

and for all the other important, encouraging, sweet people in my life! :D

and joshua and i were discussing cool stuff like the meaning of flowers yest. it's pretty interesting. and i thought abt it, and i think there's only one person worthy to send 999 roses. and tt's God, because it means 'I will love you till the end of time'. and only He truly does. :D yupp yupp

anyway, today during worship, i couldnt help but smile to myself. :D cos when the church was singing heart of worship, the guys at the back unanimously sang off tune for one line. HAHA, it was really heartwarming, because they sounded so united and together, and they were so loud that they drowned out the worship leader's correct tune. hahaha. xD they sounded like what i think the church should sound like, together, and strong! haha :D

and for one certain dear friend, I hope God spoke to you and that you'll be alright soon :D will be praying.

I feel really loved today, by ALL my wonderful wonderful family in Christ. and of course by our heavenly father!!!

Love you all lots and lots too,

Sher

http://www.peta.org/feat/ChineseFurFarms/index.asp


This is cruel, unbelievably inhumane, and evil.

How can people do this!?!

DANCE NIGHT 08




miao zu :D
i got caught looking blur again...
our super nice dressing room and zhi xian! :D

ooh! i went running today! :D haha, amazing yea? let's see how long this keeps up, if it's more than a week, i'll be surprised. haha

i should be doing math? but no, here i am typing nonsense, and i really dont like this blogskin! the fonts are too small!

haha, lao shi took a video of miao zu dancing today.it was as though someone pressed the fast forward button. it was SO funny.

okay, shall update when dance night is over!

okay okay! i'll post!

met my dance capt on the bus today, and she really loves dance. I mean, REALLY. it's quite interesting really :D and she's really nice too.

am really excited for many things, and apphrehensive for some too. xD have not thought abt whatever i am supposed to think abt, sigh.

and i am still celebrating the death anniversary of 2.4 run. just one more year to go!

should stop eating like a nut though.

am writing the script for the GP debate, and i included some parts of women and men's body language. pretty interesting.


http://www.effective-communicating.com/body-language.html

woohoo! new skin! which is kinda sad looking. but don't care la, haha, better than the skin which doesnt show any words. xD

anyway, I am SO encouraged by Linh!

Let's welcome her to the family of Christ! hahah I am so excited for her

Jess and I were doing some follow up stuff with her today, and i felt like i never wanted it to end, you could really feel her hunger for God, and that is AMAZING work that God is doing!

yippee!!!!

love,
sher

This is jess, posting cos she can't see the tagboard and so cannot tag.

1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHER :))))

2. change your layout or sth...! i really cannot see anything from my com :(

3. RIP won't die, friend; won't die! DON'T GIVE UP HOPE! HOLD ON TIGHT, BUDDYYY!!
rattle rattle... hahaha.

4. happy birthday again! x)


-love, jesss :D

i miss big mel, and rip o7. :(

rip 08 seems to be disintegrating under my charge. oh man. okay, i dont think the cell has access to here so it's alright.

and i need to talk to esther soon, or i will just crumble and die, and my heart will just break.

sigh.

this is such a lousy incoherent post. sorry.

i miss so many things and so many people so much.


yet, this is an encouraging song


in the midst of the storm, and the wind and the waves
You are so faithful, You'd still be faithful
When the stars refuse to shine
You'll still be faithful O Lord.

JESSICA CHOW!!!!!!! you're a pig man, always laugh at me

hahah, fine, spiderHOLD.

and your computer is the weird one, other people can see my posts!

and my toe hurts!!!

This is jess:
EH SHER! i really cannot see anything on your blog at all. but i hacked in and read your posts, and HAD to say something:

IT'S NOT SPIDERHOLE, YOU NUTTERNOODY!!!!!

HAHAHA goodnessssss it's spiderHOLD. like HOLD-the-position-of-a-spider kind of thing..!! HAHAAHHAHAHHA.

what HOLE?!

*LAUGHS*

i
am
about
to
die
laughing.
at
you.
as
USUAL!


xD


love, jess the jenius.

isnt this new layout pretty??? :D I feel like a genius as usual for figuring out how to put in the layout. haha, and reading all the old posts makes me miss a lot of things! esp our wonderful december holidays in 2006! haha.

went back to watch the juniors have their trials last sat though i didnt judge. i think i actually miss the tramp. sigh. i miss gym a little now. ok, not a little, quite a lot.

and rjc is way too big. the canteen is a sea of white and green. hahaha

off to watch tv!

this place is really dead... but anyway, for my own amusement, i shall narrate what happened at dinner a couple of days ago.

it started off as a really normal dinner till my dad decided to read some magazine and upon seeing some yoga pictures, announced that we would have a 'yoga showdown'. haha, and for some reason, none of us even protested. all of us happily jumped up in the middle of dinner to stand around in a circle and DO YOGA. oh man, it is really funny thinking about it...
and when i lost my balance on spiderhole, my dad began singing ' one fat spider on the floor...' he is nuts i tell you. xD



on a sidenote, i really like reading the msn nicks of the contacts from church. :) it is pretty encouraging sometimes, and a nice change from all the other sad nicks on the list. haha

and abi's getting baptised tomorrow!!

i havent been here for a long time because i ALWAYS forget what i want to say! haha, but first and foremost...

WELCOME LEICAN TO THE FAMILY OF CHRIST!!!! xD yay!


it's almost 6 weeks into school, i can't believe time passes so fast 0.o

haha, oh and RIP cell is growing, and we have finally moved out of the tiny room in l4r8 to l5r5 and 6. hahaha, hooray! now the girls and guys have our own room each. and i still think it's pretty weird to be the cm of the rip girls when i was a member last year.

hmm, i wish we had more time to spend with people. yea, and tt we had classrooms. the canteen is forever crowded. haha, and i miss some people. oh well. xD

i miss crossroad kids and december 2006! they were the best holidays ever.

oh and before i forget again, here's something REALLY funny that my grandpa said.

my grandpa, being a little blind, was staring at my sister's blue braces and then suddenly exclaimed:" why your teeth so black! never brush teeth ah!" HAHA, we were all doubled over with laughter when we saw what he meant. and he went on to comment on other people's teeth (who were not wearing braces) and telling her how white their teeth were. HAHAH. it was so funny!

ok, till next time! bye!