Hmm. i might have to switch to another blog hosting website soon. i apparently reached the limit of my picture album, so i can't upload any more pics!!! anyone who knows how to solve this please tell me ):


as of tmr, i will have worked for 1 month!!!

we have shifted our office arrangement, so now i no longer sit with my back to the boss hehe :D so i can facebook at work. hahaha

so pleased with myself.



z reached Singapore yesterdayyy and also went back yesterday. haha

well, at least we're on the same continent  now. lols

simple things that i appreciate after LDR

1. it's nice to be in the same time zone

haha, usually after work, when im going to be free for the night, its time for z to go to bed, so i spend my evenings doing my own thing, dont get to talk to him also. so during the time that im on the train, sometimes we will send each other voice messages.

although  that genius is now 'taking a nap'. he has been napping for the past two and half hours by the way. by the time he wakes up will probably be some unearthly hour in the middle of the night. haha

2. It's nice to share the same weather forecast

lol this sounds lame, but its fun to say together 'ohh, its going to rain", or 'omgosh why so hot today'

it's just nice.. to me haha.

3. I appreciate accents and new languages

i probably only realized this after dating someone who doesn't speak like me all the time. z speaks a really really nice sounding Cantonese at home, kiwi accented english to his kiwi friends, a mix of chinese-english when he's with asians, and he imitates singlish when he's with me sometimes.

it's quite funny actually although i pretend to scold him. haha, and i force him to listen to my broken Cantonese sometimes.

i'm thinking of taking thai next year in school! cos i love the lilts of the language (: and i was so thrilled when i mistakenly got an email in french from my supervisor and i happily replied in french haha.

i think i just really like the sound of new languages. haha

z on the other hand is very amused by 'walaoeh', and he loves to say 'waraoeh' when he gets a chance to. its really funny. haha

weekends are loveee

hmm quite an eventful weekend (:

shall try to update in order

1) Ballerina Project Themed Shoot


ever since the MDG picture went up, i suppose some photographers learn that i am a dancer! so one of them asked if i would like to do a shoot. since its dance, i don't mind and i roped in C to go with me (:

 some photo credits belong to Modznet, and some to Pat Media. not all the pictures are outt, cos there was more than one photographer.

 beach shoot during sunset (:

C and i taking sprinkly star feet picture during dinner haha




We were extremely lucky that one of more famous photographers in Singapore came down to shoot. his pics often come out in straits times! his shots are really artistic, and most of them dont need much photoshop editing cos his lighting skills is so good that he can create the effect already.






  first three pics are me, and the last two are C (:

 a really tiring but rewarding shoot (: i jumped so many times that my back is aching!! haha

but was awesomely fun. i do enjoy shoots, as long as the theme is creative and artistic. its like creating picturesss ((:  i like shoots which have artistic themes, and have some depth to it besides just wearing pretty clothes and smiling. hahah



2. Brunch with S and T

 we went to relish cafe at cluny court (: it was quite ex i think, but really nice

service is a bit slow, but its ok for us since we were just chit chatting and not really in a rush. haha and the food was not too badd. portions are big!!!

 pizza on a prata crust base!

 breakfast platter

 wild rocket burger! the steak was good!




and we went to Da Paulo for tiramisu

yumyum (:




2 more daysssss till Z comes!!! ((((:

 i must say i am enjoying the chinatown good eats (: haha dumpling noodles with a really awesome sauce yest, and chicken rice todayy yumyumyum





then my sis and i had a funny incident of communication breakdown.

a couple of days ago, my mum informed us that today, dad and her would have stuff on so not back for dinner

so i texted my sis if she wanted me to get dinner on the way back

and she replied "all going out!"

and i was like 'huh all going out?"

and thought that maybe my family decided to have dinner together. haha i even sent z a voice message excitedly telling him i got dinner out today


then when i reached home, no one was home!

so i texted my sis again "umm all going out means.. 3 of yall going out?"

lolll, my sis actually meant that they all had appointments, so i was home alone )):


and i send z another voice message saying ive been abandoned. haha


anyway i can COOK. heheh joking, i burnt one batch of brown rice
hahah

before i cooked this extremely simple meal.

but at least i dont die of hunger! :D
hahahah

 Treat from my urban journey boss today (:

 its a nice gesture of them, and this is my second free lunch from bosses this week! it is a lucky week lols.

we went to the loft (: which is a real cute cafe in chinatown, and i had a cheese,onion and bacon savoury waffle with mesclun salad. yumyum! (: they had chicken and avocado panini which came with salsa and chips. looked pretty good too haha

yummy dinner of my favourite food! lemon butter grilled fish with fries and mash (:


the mash that z makes is still the yummiest though (: cos his mash is mixed with cheese and milk so it has a flavour in it already. or maybe im biased.
haha

forgot to say i had yummy prawn noodles this morning as well.


today has been a delicious day! (:

need to dance!!!!

Take a step to the left

Take a step to the right

Now we're counting to the beat

A step left, a step right

Spin!

And Stop. 

Take my hand

Little steps, big steps

You lead

I follow

We're almost dancing

Now smile.

Relax

oh yes, now we're dancing.

slept really late last night cos i went dancing with some of the viva people, and then prata supper haha. dance does wonders for me. its like a little spark burns when im dancing (: and i forget everything bad (: and i love dancers of course (: its awesome to make silly dance jokes that we all get. hahah

I wish so much that i could dance, and compete again. i feel like im trapped in intermediate stage. I dont think im a terribly bad dancer, but neither am i up there amongst the top. i have got a lot of work to do before i can climb, and i feel trapped here waiting for a partner!!!

I actually think I joined the pageant cos i was depressed that i might not get to dance again after E and I ended our partnership. lols. and i needed something exciting to make me feel better.

Anyway, watched the latest WDSF competition! my favourite couple from italy won!!!! i love them!!! They are so awesome!





and z is coming in a week! (: i think i should relax a little bit. since i already know z is very phlegmatic, i need to chill a lil. cos when he gets quiet, i wonder if something is wrong. but he's prob sleeping/eating/studying/gaming or something random, and nothing is actually wrong.

                                                    Quick come! i'm waiting for you!





                                          meanwhile i shall be dancing to keep me occupied

                                           hahahah. who am i kidding. i prob look more like this

你太愛一個人的時候，他就不會很愛你了

心好痛

the past couple months, i have been alternating between spamming dance videos and abstaining from them.

it kinda rips my heart out to watch dancing sometimes.

if i should stop, i should delete my dance music i think.

i think the hardest thing to do, besides packing away dance shoes for good, is to have to watch someone dance while you are trapped in the seats.

a lil tired

 yesterday i discovered that i really like Mos burger. it tastes like healthy fastfood for some reason. and i love the potato croquette. haha, went for lunch with S and CS after a longg day of dance!!


dance was really fun yesterday! but im paying for it now with achy creaky muscles. my neck is especially sore. so are my shoulders. haha


anyway, waiting for WK to get back to me about whether he would like to dance or not.

hoping for the best, preparing for the worst i suppose. i dont really know if i will keep trying to look for someone else if this falls through

a lil tired.

i think i will just sit here for a while and let someone else tell me what to do.

 oh and i really didn't feel like going surfing yest, but i had to go to collect shoes that i left behind. so i went but didnt surf lols. just uh helped the girls take pics, and drank free alchohol. haha

haha oh wow (((: my sis sweetly gave me 20 dollars sorta to wish me luck for my try out tmr (: and cos im poor ma. haha

awww my sweetie sis :')

love uuuu!

Oooh!

taking a break before starting on my editorial work again. what a way to spend friday night :/

haha but it's okayyy (: cos i m real excited for tomorrow (:

10am meet the teacherrr
1030- 1130 lesson

prac then lunch with the viva ppl

then back to dance with S for the pageant 'hello baby' routine (:

then off to vivo to meet the DGs, we're going to sentosa to the beach to chill and then to wavehouse for surfing (:

here's a pic of last week's dance with the pageant girlsss (:  there are currently 18 of us left in the finals haha





crossing my fingers and toes that tomorrow's try outs go well.

 i have quite a lot of confidence in him, tt's why im willing to take a 50 dollar lesson just for the try outs even though im so poor nowww, cos im hoping that he will be able to put an end to my partner search.

of course, the fact that he's willing to take a lesson when he hasnt met met yet, is a good sign that he's serious about coming back to dance (:







“And verily, a woman need know but one man well, in order to understand all men; whereas a man may know all women and understand not one of them.”

There's one thing everybody wants to feel: to be loved, without seemingly begging for it. 

it's nice to have some routine in life, like everyday i wash the dishes.

i actually really like washing dishes. it's quite therapeutic. and it's nice to make things clean and shiny again. if only life could be scrubbed clean like that.



might have a date with my dad to watch skyfall with him, cos he really wanna watch it i think


anyway, finally fixed a date with potential partner for lesson, and i very excitedly told my parents about it. but they started frowning and asked me if i hadn't had enough of dancing. and they straight out asked me to stop dancing.


which is quite sad. the two major things in my life, z and dance, they disapprove and want me to stop.

:/

quite depressing for me sometimes. 

look! yummy chocs from Paris (:

my dad brought back a lot of boxes!! yumyumyum!!



i lead a boring life now.

travel writing work, come home for dinner, then i do my urban journey work, sleep, repeat.


i sleep at 10 or 11 everyday. amazing hahaha


am going to try out with my potential latin partner this sat.

EXTREMELY EXCITED!

i need to dance to feel alive!


Oh those who are free should check this event out:


http://www.urbanjourney.com/lifestyle/boutiques-at-house-on-dempsey-479


i wrote the entry for this event (: but it actually sounds like a fun event! i would go if i was free. hahaa (: like a market! i miss new zealand's farmers markets! 

whilst i was thinking today, i decided that LDRs and heartbreak has one commonality.


it both involves wanting to be close to someone you cannot be close with.


though of course heartbreak is worse. the difference is that in heartbreak u cannot even express your feelings to the other person anymore. which is the real killer.

at least in LDRs, u share something and u can build on it.

easier said than done though. reports show that 70% of LDRs break up, and it is common for people in LDRs to suffer from mild depression as well as experience the following:

1. anxiety
2. anger
3. frustration
4. insecurity
5. hopelessness




simply put, it is very emotionally draining to have to be apart.


to be more positive, there are a few upsides though!



such as conflict avoidance because when a couple has so little time tgt, we dont want to waste it being grumpy, and of course when we're tgt, it should be amazing! (:





I CAN HARDLY WAIT THE TWO WEEKS TILL HE COMES BACK

>:[


everyday i mark another day off my calender. everyday i think about how it will be like to see him again, to be able to hold his hand.

DG update 2- dance and grooming

started this post yesterday but was too tired to finish. 

long day today. had church in the morn, and then dance lesson with the rest of the DGs and then followed by grooming lesson.


dance was actually really fun!!! i really enjoyed it (:

and the grooming lesson was quite useful too, we did a questionnaire on personal style, and i think the trainer was quite hot. haha

the girls are nice too, friendly bunch, and they always talk nonsense on the whatsapp group, but its quite funny.

then our mentor/organiser has a mini talk with us, preparing us for what's to come ahead, and really encouraging us.

she said that what ppl often dont see is the emotional journey tt all of us take on the way to the pageant, which is really quite true.

all of us have lots of insecurities, fears etc. and ppl can be very critical and harsh towards girls in pageants. but i spose that's a reality we have to face when we set ourselves up for some level of public exposure. one girl even cried. :/

at least the girls are super sweet n cute to each other. that's nice (:



i am also very happy that S agreed to help me out with the dance (((: i am super excited about the dance, cos we are choreo-in g our own, and i can't wait to dance!!glad i got someone who will look good on camera and can dance. cos besides the fact tt of cos it affects me, i dont want whoever helps me to be upset if there are unglam pics all over the place. 

 and love bonito is so awesome to sponsor our casual wear attire for the finals!!! :D


Pre judging is happening on 2nd december and finals are 15th december! (: 

finals will consist of casual wear catwalk, evening gown catwalk, talent segment, and then they will select 10 to ask questions.

it's a good experience so far. am glad i stuck with it and got to experience this once in a life time (:

Hmm..

Did you know

 tomorrow, 11/11 is forever alone day.

makes sense. 2 pairs of parallel lines that will never meet.




so angry with myself too.

>:[

i forgot to buy falsies for the DG classes tomorrow ): we're having a dance and grooming class tmr and it's going to be filmed and photographed and I dont have lashes again.

>:[  

ended my first week of work, and went for a relaxing facial. but gosh, whole week i've been researching Bali, so when i fell asleep during the facial, i dreamt about Bali surfing. -.-


anyway, my work on Bali is up on the villa bali website as well (: so pleased. i hope tt people book the villas tt i wrote for. hahaha i think i am now quite an expert on Bali, i have written about 140 places of interest and reviewed more than 60 villas so far! feel free to ask me for recommendations if ur going to bali :D hahaha


i have been quite lucky this year. many new opportunities. i shall list out some of the major highlights of this year:


1. Great dancing times

I really did have an amazing partner who helped me forward quite a lot, and i will always be appreciative of that. And then I went on to NZ and learnt from really awesome teachers who are so patient!

2. Thailand FS

i feel very sentimental about Thailand after this trip, after seeing the real Thai people behind all the touristy facade. and i think i really love the culture and the language and the people. i miss the thai people and the villages. was really lucky that i got to experience this journey that i prob will never to again!

3. NZ

NZ was really nice in that i was allowed to finally be free and independent, and i really loved that, even though i complained of boredom sometimes. haha, but i did also enjoy the close knit asian community there (: or even just amongst us exchange students, it was also nice (: i miss having my own toilet space, own fridge space, autonomy to decide when to eat, what to eat, what to do.

i really really reallyyyyy liked that. and i miss the less humid weather.


 4.Special people 

Of course i also met special people, everyone who has walked into my life, and even those who have walked out, have all touched my heart in some way or another.
and through travelling so much this year, being away from home for at least half of 2012, i learnt this very important lesson (as copied from thought catalogue) :


You find the most important people in your life when you’re the furthest away from them. Distance makes the heart grow fonder, but distance also makes the heart grow colder. It could be “out of sight, out of mind.” You figure out who makes the effort to keep in touch with you and who doesn’t. But more importantly, you figure out who YOU make the effort to keep in touch with and who you don’t. You learn who you want to come back to.

It's sad but true. we all only have certain amounts of energy.

Grateful for the girl friends i have. love them a lot.

Really glad i met Z too, although our love is really tragic. but i m grateful to have met him too.

and grateful for everyone i met in NZ, i genuinely miss them a lot. esp L. she's the sweetest.



5. Experiences that make for a good story


Went to a Thai Disco (:

Rode around BKK in the middle of the night on a bike with  my friend and a new thai friend. seriously. sometimes i do stupid things.

Did fieldwork in BKK's red light district. the sneaky part about going undetected was extremely thrilling to me lols.

Bathed in public and in buffalo shit water that messed up my hormones for months after, camped with maggots and cicadas, coped with ice cold bathing water and no lights at night for a few days at a stretch when there were power cuts in the mountains.

Climbed a hill to watch stars, was freezing at the top of the hill and climbed back down in pitch black and only 2 torches amongst the 4 of us

Trip out to Akaroa with a guy i've known for 3 weeeekkksss. hahaha

done a couple of photoshoots that i've always wanted to do but i'd never get to do in singapore

first REAL clubbing experience in NZ with another bunch of new friends. hahah
 
Being so thick skinned to join a  pageant, although it was my reaction to months of being annoyed about hearing someone talk about her title hahah

went to Bangkok with S and T where we shopped, and talked and had girly time!

learnt that my cooking is horrible, but i can still survive on it (: and a benefit is that i lose weight too. hahaha

not 1 but 2 editorial internships which are currently keeping me very busyyy





it's been an awesome year indeed. (:  it may be for the better or for the worse, but it has not been a boring year.


i have lived away from home for 2.5 years and i have definitely changed and grown a lot in many different ways.


but i learnt most importantly, that i am most definitely able to survive.





I'm bulletproof
Nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away

You shoot me down
But i won't fall

sleepy everyday...

after all the frivolous things i've been up to, time to do some serious work! anyway, my articles have started to be featured on the website (:

so pleased

http://www.urbanjourney.com/homepage


i shall not tell yall what i wrote hehe, but there're quite a few that are mine (:

also planning my modules for next year and settling the MC ratio from exchange.


Anyway, yesterday was my parent's 25th anniversary (:

so we went out to Brotzeit german restaurant for dinner!


yums! sausages and pork knuckles and mash and goulash soup

and dessert! pancakes with plum and choc cake with ice cream.

omg the ice cream was to die for!

anyway i spend all day reviewing things already, so i shan't review anything in my free time lols.

but it was so nice (: i love molten choc cake

and this is so cute :D 

19 more days!


好想好想和你在一起.......

Bangkok with the girls!

 went to bangkok with the girls, S and T! (: we eat and shop, eat and shop! until my feet were so tired!!!!

then we went to the spa hahah

i must say, i miss thailand a lot. it evokes a lot of memories, i love the language as well. im considering taking thai 1 next semester!

anyway, most of the pics are of food cos we looked really sweaty most of the time from INTENSE shopping, hahah

 curly fries from A&W!

 breakfast at the hotel (:

 noodle soup!

 coconut ice cream

old school coke :D

 roadside rice noodle!

 my colorful clothes!

 S's pantone colors hahaa

I love the girls, it was our first trip together, and hopefully not the last! someday, we hope to have the three of us, plus our other halves. haha :D maybe someday (:

anyway, once z comes, we'll have our first meet the boys session (:

its so awesome to have girls to be able to talk about anything with, and i really meannn we can talk abt everything and anything!!
we've never all been single at the same time, but this is prob one of the rare times tt we're attached all tgt as well. already 2 of us have broken up and gotten reattached just this year :0 we are too volatile oh dear.



I am somehow extremely lazy to blog.


I am working two internships at the moment, trying to sort out a dance partnership, as well as commit to a pageant. it's quite a plateful honestly.

I am so tired!!!!

and i miss z!!! i smile when i look at his pictures (: tt's what i do when i dont have wifi and cant whatsapp him, i look at his pic and smile to myself. how lame i am! hahah

but he's coming in three weeks!! yayy!!! ((: