tell u something funny!


i was irritated with my geog lab, because i have to locate Trinidad and south west Ireland on the map that doesnt have a scale, and doesnt have labels.

so i googled out what i was thinking: 'where on earth is Trinidad'

and the auto google popular search came out 'where on earth is osama bin laden'


hahaha. okay la, i thought it was funny ok. hahah


but i still havent found Trinidad, much less measure the distance between that and Ireland. haha.


btw, just so u know, i found out that the ocean is not regularly flat. there're actually parts where water goes up and down a slope in the ocean.
quite cool (:

If I dont't play for keeps
perhaps I shouldn't be playing at all.

okay, im seriously super doomed this sem. ):


exams are coming right up, and i dont have notes done at all...

im still struggling to do all the assignments and projects due sometime this or next week.

and i havent had time to sit down and study my own indiv work ):

and i keep waking up late, or missing my alarm clock.

i really spread myself too thin this sem i think

i prob will quit hall dance next sem.

im stressed. and i found a new destressing activity. i hunt for split ends on my hair. hahahah

i can't wait for sem to be over.


sigh.

met up with the 5B guys today!! haha, it was actually a little strange cos the rest of the girls werent there, but since i was already in town, might as well pop down and see them, esp since julian was there!!!!! havent seen him in ages okay!!!!

and i cant wait till jess and dawn come back!!!!

i really love bruno mars!

and i had this really strange thought that if Jesus was a pop star, this might be what He would sing, except that He not only just said that He'll do it, but He's already died for us.

man, Jesus really loves me that much.


Grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I’d jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

oh and dear friends, please unlink me from your blogs!!! (:

thank you! (: <3

its so sad to hear about another earthquake in Myanmar ):

why are the tectonic plates so active nowadays? ): the earth must be splitting apart again ):

pictures from comp!!!!!! (:

i shall blog, partly so that the highly emotional post will not be on the top. and partly because im so nervous about tmr!!!!!!!!!!!! (: hahah

nervous, and excited, and scared, and hopeful. haha

i almost feel like im going on holiday tmr. i always get the very excited, cant sit still, can't sleep feeling when im going on holiday, and i feel like im going on holiday tmr!!! (:


and at the rate im packing, i might as well be taking a holiday too. haha (: i have so many things to pack!

including a honeystars dispenser!! (: haha.



ok im so nervous too.

i hope i dont forget jive, and don't mix up the 2 rumba routines.

oh my gosh, we're seriously very ambitious to do 11 events on our first major comp together.




goodness. and it was my idea. what was i thinking!!!!!!!!



anyway, im very tan now. i couldnt stand having too tan a face though, so i rubbed some off. haha


okay, im going to continue my packing. (:

love!!!

you know the feeling you get sometimes? when nothing's really wrong, but there's just this feeling that doesn't go away. i don't know how to describe it really. its a 'im a little sad, but i can't really explain why' kind of feeling i think. and it means i've been thinking too much :D hahaha


this is a sweet pic, no? (:

sigh, God, i would like you to hold my hand.

well, comp is on sat. we had our last pre comp prac today. partner and i have come a very long way since jan. its been a super intensive, dance crazy 2 months, and we've really pulled up the standard of our 5 dances a lot...
i hope i don't under perform on sat because of tiredness or injury. that'd just really do an injustice to the amount of work we put in...





it's an awfully big adventure to fall in love.

and im not up for adventures.


you see, it's like that little girl letting go of her balloon, and once the balloon flies too high up in the sky, you can't get it back anymore.

unless, of course, the balloon bursts, and you've got a broken heart.








and all in all, this is what i have concluded.




i would like to do this someday. its an ultimate fantasy to be completely alone with nature and God, dancing for the sheer pleasure of it. just celebrating creation... haha.. someday i will do this (:

hahaha i sprained my back.

and you know what angelina said?


can sprain another side so to balance out?


wah. best. i died laughing. hahahahah

sometimes i still miss my ballet shoes very much and i wish i'd never hung them up.
my pointe shoes are half a size too small now, but i can still squeeze into them.
i love the lines the pointe shoe makes with your leg. haha


partner calls ballet 'my roots' hahahah, he's so funny right.


let me tell u something else very funny he said
'sometimes i think that i don't know my limits and if you don't restrict my dancing, i'd kill myself'



haha he's such a dedicated dancer, i find it amusing too sometimes. (: but that's why we clique hahaha

super super nice dance!! (:

I love this dance, i watch it to inspire myself. haha her ballet technique is absolutely flawless and she's really expressive in her dancing. love her!!!

OH BTW, I SPENT ZERO CENTS TODAY!!!! (:






but i spent 10 dollars cabbing back after midnight from dance studio yest ):

penny wise pound foolish

): hahaha

there's something so peaceful about looking at clouds in a clear blue sky.

i was still really tired from yest's mock comp, to the extent that i fell asleep a few times during the day. as long as i was left alone for 5 or 10 mins i'd be asleep. hahaha, i've concluded that my body is physically uncapable of burning out. because it simply shuts down to recuperate once tired so i dont fall sick and stuff. hahaha, quite cool (:


anyway, the point is that i was tired so i didnt train late with partner. and its the first time i've left training while the sky is still clear and bright and blue. and evening skies are so peaceful.
i had such a nice walk back, thinking about how pretty God made the clouds. and the wind was lovely. (:

i felt rested. haha, not a physical rested, because i came straight back to nap. but a soul kind of rested i think. (:

peaceful.

(:

today we did love actually filming!! haha and wilfred was awesome to help us film. he's the pro! haha always practice carring video cam at pathlight eh. haha (: haha bud was very cute when she laughed at everything while depicting present courtship, actually i think she didnt need to act leh, its her normal self already hahaha (:


and today we had mock comp, its the first time we tried on our costumes to dance, complete with accessories and everything. thank goodness there're no serious malfunctions, and everything's quite alright. though i did whack my face once with the sleeve. and partner pulled my earring once.

except for the cutting of my skirt. which rides up when i do the 180 degrees vertical splits for pre novice rumba routines ): i kept fretting over it. the teacher said that the cut of the skirt wasnt done well by the tailor. but anyway, it's made and i spent a good amount of money on it already. even if its bad i also won't change. haha

anyway i still like my costume. (: even if it's not a perfect cut for dance, it looks good! (: at least i think it does la (: pictures next time


and we did a decent job today at mock comp, routines were mostly in place, we remembered all our steps. only during jive i went out of breath and stamina and i gave up after one round, haha we have to do 1 and three quarts round for jive haha
and i was dying on the floor. hahah


ok tired.

part of me is very happy with my partnership and excited about comp

another part of me is very very very tired from rushing everywhere and having no time to do anything and no time to eat proper meals. i havent eaten rice in 3 days i think ): sometimes im really lazy to prac... esp when i know that i can't rest when i get back, because there's a huge pile of work, or a meeting to go to... ):


and another part of me is very worried about my work, and im very scared that this sem i cant maintain my grades!

in a way i would like comp to quickly come and be over so i have some time to start studying and also to sleep and eat. haha


but it's okay! God is always with me so we'll be alright. whenever i dance, i really do thank God for this whole body of mine that can move. i realised that everything in me has to be healthy for me to dance. even if one little toe hurts, i cant dance properly. isnt that quite amazing? that the whole body works together,even if you dont realise it? hahah, and isnt it amazing that the human body can do so many cool stuff? and stretch so well to create beautiful lines? God's design of the human body is really very sophisticated. it's not just functional. it's really beautiful as well. haha, ok im just rambling, but it blows me away everytime i think about how cool the body design is. (:

and thank God for protecting me from any injury so far, even though ive been training super intensively and not looking after myself enough, i haven't fallen sick, or fallen down, and im still healthy and well and uninjured (:


God's so nice to me.



and dear Lord, in the midst of all my dancing, I'm still Your child first of all. I have tried, and i really hope i have honored You in all the decisions I've made in dancing so far. I hope that when people look at me, they see You too. I love You!



ok, going to be 3am! church tmr! nights!

eleven days to comp, eleven routines to master!!! (:

oh wow, everyday exciting things happen eh (:

partner and i are now competing in eleven events instead of nine. haha

we're competing free of charge in 2 higher level events.

cos the teacher didnt have enough couples to compete for the pre novice rumba and chacha, so she asked partner and i to compete free of charge!
our friends were real supportive, and they encouraged us to go for it, esp rumba, so we decided to try(: so exciting!

so now we're doing...



closed syllabus

1.tertiary medallist chacha
2.tertiary medallist rumba
3.tertiary medallist jive
4.tertiary medallist samba
5.tertiary medallist pasodoble

6.medallist chacha
7.medallist rumba
8.medallist samba
9.medallist paso doble

open category

10.pre novice rumba
11.pre novice chacha





the difference is that pre novice is open category, which means no syllabus steps restrictions, which also means, we can do anything we want!!!!!!!! (:

so we have 11 days to choreo 2 new routines by ourselves, with a lot of leg extensions and spinning added in (: this is where dancing ballet and contemp really helps! (: partner is strong in spinning, so he'll spin, i'll be stretching a lot i think! (: so fun for us to choreo our own routine. (: its like an experiment. (:



he asked me i was pleased with our good progress, and he asked me if i would be sad if we didn't win. He said that he was already quite contented with what we've achieved so far. (:
it's nice to work with someone who likes working with you too. i think that's a very natural thing, and we're having lots of fun, discussing how to fuse contemp into the rumba routine since we both love contemp too! (:


lovelove

dance me to the end of love

just some pictures that make me sigh... so beautiful



strong yet delicate



beautiful lines created through chaos



radiance and warmth contrasted with ice creates the ethereal feel



crushed but not broken



i realised they're all in black and white.

i have become a penny pincher

oh man!!!!! the tailor over-exceeded my costume budget by 50%!!!!!!

i told her to try her very best to keep the cost below 300 and she agreed, and when i called her today she told me 450!!! she didnt tell me beforehand!!!! im really upset!! she said the stones are very expensive and she put a lot, and i know her workmanship is really good, but still!!!! she didnt inform me beforehand!!


I AM VERY VERY EXTREMELY POOR NOW. ):


for the past month, i have been trying to live on 20 cents a day.

hahaha, given ideal situations, it's actually possible.

i have cereal in my fridge for breakfast, 20 cents is to pay to take away hall breakfast, which i save for lunch. haha, and hall dinner is provided.

(:

on days when i manage it, i feel very accomplished.

but i dont often get ideal situations, because a lot of days i am out during the time hall is serving dinner, and i have no food ):


someone also took my $2.50 comb!!!! ): ): ): i made my partner help me look for it but we didnt find it ):

so i bought a 40 cents comb. ):

and someone took the shoebrush that partner and i shared money to buy! i told him im not buying a new one.


to save money, i'm doing my own nails, didnt buy new fake lashes, and didnt buy hair accessories. haha



sigh. 2 weeks more!!!!! then comp will be over, and we can stop going for the semi and private checking lessons.
sigh. its crazily expensive okay.

a semi private lessons (2 couples) costs 20 per person
a private lesson (1 couple) costs 35 per person
tecnique classes are 125 for 8 lessons
normal latin classes are 100 for 12 lessons


at least costumes and accessories is a one off thing. i wont have to buy new ones for a long time. at least a year i think.
and no need to pay for lessons for new routines.
i think the next comp will be much cheaper, just need to pay registration fee and a few checking lessons. its hardest to start out!! but its okay, partner and i will get through this together!!!



well, a good thing is that ive completely cut off shopping for a while. because if i think about it, a 10 dollars shirt would pay for half a semi private class. haha


i think i need a summer job (: maybe 2 ):
haha

something nice from my QT today!!!!!! (:


"From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked" (luke 12:48b)

Jesus Christ was referring to many aspects of our lives.

If He has given us an outgoing personality, He expects us to use that ability to honor the Lord and attract people to Jesus Christ

If He has given us great intellectual abilities, He expects us to use these capacities to learn all we can and to use that information to carry out His purposes in the world

If we have grown up in a home that has been safe and secure, He expects us to use our sense of security to reach out to others who are less fortunate and help them develop feelings of safety and protection within the family of God

If we've inherited or are able to make large amounts of money, He expects us to use our material resources generously to further the work of His Kingdom.

If He is giving us an opportunity at this moment to get an education, He expects us to learn all that we can in that environment and not waste time and effort.

If we've already obtained education, He expects us to use out educational experience to carry out His goals in this world.

If He has given us unusual talents and abilities, God expects us to use those talents and abilities to carry out the Great Commission

If He has given us a family, He expects us to model what it means to be a person of character




so cool eh!!!!!!! (:


im studying moses now btw, and i really like moses (: moses is such a great man of God. (:

after jive today, my partner asked me: "are you dripping?"

and i said 'yea, u?'

and he said 'im raining'


hahah!!!

went shopping for my dance comp accessories today (:

i bought:
-glitter stones for eye make up
- fake lash super sticky glue (this is an investment okay. very hard to find this brand of glue, its super good!)
-golden hand bracelets
-earrings
-bump its for my hair
-huge golden necklace with blue stones (this was 2 dollars btw, i was so thrilled)


and i spent 53.5 (: i went 3.5 over budget because i bought 2 pairs of earrings. the first pair is really nice but it's too heavy and it flew off my ear when i practised chacha. so had to rebuy. ):

i was really very on task today. i dashed around bugis trying not to be distracted!!! (:


a few times i walked into a shop not selling what i was looking for. then i'd audibly talk to myself and say 'ok, cannot, no money' and dash out. haha (:


anyway, the one thing i learnt from latin is how to put on fake lashes. im very good at it now okay! (:
the first few times i tried, i smudged my whole eyes, and got glue everywhere, and spoilt a few lashes.

now i can paste lashes with black glue without problems! haha (:
black glue creates effect of eyeliner, but if u paste wrongly then it'll ruin your whole makeup la, because there'll be a black line when you remove.

i also learnt to draw my own eyeliner, i can use liquid liner nowadays. (:


2 weeks left to our first comp together!

partner and i like to drink bubble milk tea after training but we're not allowed to drink bubble milk tea anymore. because we're very poor now ):

and let me tell you something funny that happened during hall dance today!!!!!


choreo: okay, so on count 5, we flex our feet

dancer: eh, so flex front or flex back?

choreo: -pause- what flex front flex back!!!! it's called POINT!!!!!


HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!

laughed to death