eyeshadows (:

my current palette (: love the colours, but my favourite blue and purple is running out ): and i don't really use the neon bright colours, so...


MAYBE i could get a new one (:

just maybe....






oh my goshhh!!!!! look at the gorgeous colours!!!!!!!!!!


but it's SOLD OUT ): ): ):





maybe this? (:


all the colours make me so happy (: like painting a rainbow (:





wouldnt buy this though. looking at it doesnt make me feel like putting on any make up . haha

The Single Gift



How blessed you are, you single one,

Don't talk of care and woes.

You've got too much to be thankful for,
Oh what, you'd like to know.



It's no mistake, no misdirection

Of God's perfect plan

That you've not found your special lady
Or you, that certain man.



God loves you so and has much more

To give than you've ever received.

That He's giving His best to

you right now,
You really must believe.



His best is Himself, do you have it in full

Or only a bit on the side.

No man can meet your needs like God,
Nor can a lovely bride.



If your life's not complete, you know

that Jesus is

And your life He will fill

If you'll only put Him first each day
And live to do His will.



He's gifted you for undistracted

Devotion to the Lord

There should be nothing that

can interfere
With Him and prayer and the Word.



Unless you let down the guard of

your heart

And let others take His place,

Then you'll lack joy and peace

and hope
And not experience His grace.



So give your heart right back to God,

Let Him keep it safe for you.

And when it's better than His best,
He'll make your one into two.



Donna L. Mihura

Come to Me and I will give you rest....

i know why God wants us to sleep!!! (:

It is to recharge us!
hmm, that sounded very self explanatory, but really!





I went to sleep just cos.. well, just cos i was sleepy la. and I woke up with a whole direction for summer!!!!! (: (: (:

and now I am all excited for summer!!! (: (: (:

My theme for this summer 2011 is: Caring-for others, for self
wow! doesn't that sound like a good title? (: (: (:


before i tell u what i am going to do this summer, i shall tell you why sleeping helped me come up with this!

in my dream today, i dreamt of a lot of people whom i have not really contacted while in school, i dreamt of people who are sad, some who are sick and in pain. and then i dreamt of my mummy, i dreamt that when i kissed her cheek, i realised that she's grown a year older, and that she's scared too sometimes of growing old, and she's scared of being lonely, and I havent been there for her much this past year, for her to talk to. ):


and i think that maybe, partly its to do with how much i dance and all, and i realised that maybe dancing is highly individualistic, and because of my high commitment to it, i've lost the capacity to care enough for the people around me this past year. ):

which also makes me sad to think that if my performance team dies, it'd completely remove the team part of my dancing. so i also concluded that i won't join any other groups if the team dies.


and therefore, this summer, i want to take the time to spend with people i love, people who mean a lot to me, or simply i wanna get in touch with again (:




aiyo, why she sleep also so pretty ): ): this woman sleeps to glamorously. and she has make up on. tsk. and she's wearing falsies too, i can tell, cos she didnt paste her eyelashes properly, one end is sticking out. haha.
ok, shouldn't be so bad, i think even if she sleeps normally also very pretty (:



Without school and hall dance in the way, even with latin now and then, I'll still have the time and capacity to meet up with people, to have time to write notes or make cards, talk to my lil sis (who is growing up fast!!! she has guy friends too already!!! hahah), talk to my mum, talk to my dad, attend cell, help out with the children's church retreat, visit the pathlight kids, meet all my lovely friends, ok, basically show love in any form i can?


and of course, if i depend on my own strength, i might die out in a month, so this summer is also a time for me to show more love to God, and let God love me (:

God really loves me a lot, He's always been there by my side, anytime

this picture made me tear a little btw. I love God, and i want to be His little princess forever.




see, it was an hour and a half nap i think, ok, maybe its not a nap anymore, its a snooze. but well, i think its worth it!!!! (: (: (:




ok, time to wake up and study for population geog!!!!!!!! (: cute kid right (:



loveloveeee

it's nice to go out in the morning sun, where the warm sun makes you feel toasty and warm, instead of burning my ears!

i've got one more paper left tmr, gosh, i can't wait. exams are so yucky.

and i really can't wait to go home. i'm planning the fastest way to move everything out, so that hopefully, i can go home within a day or 2 of packing. haha.

it would be nice to be looked after during summer, and not have to take care of myself. haha

hmm, but going home also means that everytime i need to travel to dance trainings in school or at AnA, and to church, i'm gonna need half an hour more!!!

alternatively, my dad could send me (: (: (: and pick me up!!!!!


lovelove (:

(:

my heart is really really really tired

no matter what decisions i make, everything seems wrong all the time, and i really don't know what's going on with me.

nothing seems right, and its so tiring to feel the same thing every single day. im struggling against myself all the time.


i really want to run away and hide.


for a long long while

);

studying makes me amazingly sleepy.

i've re read this passage like 3 or 4 times, and nothing went in at all. just like a whole mass of words swimming around on the page...

im really less prepared for exams this time round than the previous sem.

i havent't touched my population geog notes at all!!! haha

but it doesnt really matter too much to me i guess, except of course, unless i drop below moe requirements and they come after me. hahah

but then, thinking about all that i think im gonna be facing with my parents in the next few months, it would be nice to have good or at least decent grades to use as a shield to hide behind. hahah

so i better study. hahah

lovelove (:

real tired

but we are in time, and to be in time means to change.




I guess, i'm lucky to have special people to miss.

and show u my work of art!!!!!! (:

i must be missing jess loads, cos i did very jess things today!!!


i tried to drink expired milk!! now that's a first, and not expired by a day, but by a week! haha. (:

of course that doesn't compare with jess's m&ms that have been expired for 4 years, but still. haha

i only had 2 spoonfuls though, friends told me not to drink it haha


so i am now trying to thaw my sausage bun with my hairdryer, and steaming it on top of the boiling water kettle. im using the 2 ends of the sausage to balance it on the rim of the kettle, and letting the steam heat it up (:

i shall take a photo to show u. haha, i think it's quite effective (:


why am i such a genius?????(: (: (:


from cold and frosty to warm steamed sausage bun!!!!! (:


jess would be so proud of me (:

JS is so boring to study, i shall show u cute pictures ok? (:






hahah, greedy hamster made me smile (: so cute (:






can't wait for exams to be over! i have been a hermit crab recently, refusing to go out unless absolutely necessary!!

i have also been eating a lot of seaweed thanks to angelina and wilfred! haha (:




best seaweed in the world (:

lovelove

i went to SKS bookstore with jess today!!!

i love jess buddy to bits, and we had such fun as usual wanting to buy everything in the store, and laughing at every single thing in the world. haha (:

im so glad she's my buddy (:

and we bought real pretty cards and stuff to give away (:

actually everything we bought is to give away, so it's not so bad after all (:


and exams are in a week!!! ): ): ):

i can't wait till after exams (: i think that angelina, wilfred, shaun and i are going to love the world for salsa night!!! im real excited !! (:

angelina doesnt want to dance though, and she says she'll sit and eat and take photos.

i'll tell you something funny angelina said:

"HAHAHA. later they force me to dance before giving me food, then i'll faint."



hahaha, she is an awesome buddy (:
and she reminded me that i blogged that i'll come up with a love formula at the end of the sem, after taking love mod. hahaha.

i have nothing much to say about it after the whole mod, so i shall quote wise people, like i always do.

Love is like a butterfly, it goes where it pleases and it pleases wherever it goes. You can chase a butterfly all over the field and never catch it. But if you sit quietly in the grass it will come and sit on your shoulder.


ok! that is my summary of love mod. hahaha (:


ok, im real sleepy

lovelove!!! (:

Dear friends, I am very happy to tell you that my friend Shaun is now a member of the family of Christ!!!!!!!!!!! (: (: (:



Im real happy, and I think the simple faith that he believes with is quite amazing. haha, through all the little things he does, i'm really sure it's genuine, and it's very child-like, it's quite cute (:

like, when he was scared that he'd be late for church, he prayed that God will wake him up early. haha, and i lent him purpose driven life, so everyday he'll update me about his qt (:

and yesterday before our club's dance performance, i caught him saying a prayer, haha (:

im always reallll happy when someone becomes a new citizen of heaven!!!

rejoicing with the angels!!! (: (: (: (: (:

There is no circumstance, no trouble, no testing, that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has gone past God and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose, which I may not understand at the moment. But I refuse to become panicky, as I lift up my eyes to Him and accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart.

Alan Redpath


When a train goes through a tunnel and it gets dark, you don't throw away the ticket and jump off. You sit still and trust the engineer.

Corrie Ten Boom

sigh dear friends. i am so confused. and i am so sad, because my latin team is going through a lot of problems, and there's a chance that there won't be a latin team anymore. of course i can still dance and compete with my studio, but no team... ):


SIGHHHHHH.


i was reading the screwtape letters recently.

this is one passage i read and re read and re read it...
i was touched, and sad, and in a way, i just felt that God really loves us...


"And that is where the troughs come in. You must have often wondered why the Enemy does not make more use of His power to be sensibly present to human souls in any degree He chooses and at any moment. But you now see that the Irresistable and the Indisputable are the two weapons which the very nature of His scheme forbids him to use. Merely to override a human will (as His felt presence in any but the faintest and most mitigated degree would certainly do) would be for Him useless. He cannot ravish. He can only woo. for His ignoble idea is to eat the cake and have it; the creatures are to be one with Him but yet themselves; merely to cancel them, or assimilate them, will not serve. He is prepared to do a little ovverriding at the beginning.

He will set them off with communications of His presence which, though faint, seem great to them, with emotional sweetness, and easy conquest over temptation. But He never allows this state of affairs to last long. Sooner or later He withdraws, if not in fact, at least from their conscious experience, all those supports and incentives. he leaves the creature to stand up on its own legs- to carry out from the will alone duties which have lost all relish. It is during such trough periods, much more than during the peak periods, that it is growing into the sort of creature He wants it to be. Hence the prayers offered in the state of dryness are those which please Him best.

We can drag our patients along by continual tempting, because we design them only for the table, and the more their will is interfered with, the better. He cannot 'tempt' to virtue as we do to vice. He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles.

Do not be deceived, Wormwood. Our cause is never more in danger when a human, no longer desiring, but still intending, to do the Enemy's will,looks round upon a universe from which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken, and still obeys."

im glad to say that the peace of God is with me again (:



choices are not always fun but there's nothing worse than feeling so restless because the sinful will conflicts with the Holy Spirit.

and in fact, after making the choice, i feel like the situation itself has improved much more.

whatever it is, i just really want God to be in this, there's no peace in it without Him.

did i ever tell you how glad i am that jess buddy is home??? (: (: (:

"We ask God to forgive us for our evil thoughts and evil temper, but rarely, if ever ask Him to forgive us for our sadness."

-R. W. Dale

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable."



- C.S. Lewis

In the midst of struggles, God still speaks very clearly to me in really strange ways. hahaha.

i saw this status on fb:

would you rather have something that makes you happy for a short period of time knowing that it will hurt you badly or not have it at all.

and amidst all the other replies, cool dude Kenneth from grace said: "HAHA think of it in this manner. if people knew their purpose then they wont experiment. if people knew that they are God's masterpiece then they are more likely to choose what is better for them in the long run."


SIGH. knowing is one thing. heart response is another thing eh.



anw, today's qt was also talking about 'decisions that determine destiny'

im studying the book of daniel now btw. (:

and it was talking about daniel's heart response to all things pagan in babylon, how he treated it respectfully, but continued to set himself apart.



Let me type the paragraph out that speaks to me:

The King James Version reads that "Daniel purposed in his heart that he would not defile himself" (8:1). Literally, this means that Daniel placed this decision "upon his heart." In other words, Daniel knew what was right and wrong. He made a deliberate decision that involved both his head and his heart.




at the end of the day, there's no room for discussion. i already know what's right or wrong, the battle isn't in the head, its all in the heart. and its not getting easier with everyday



just a side thought, if i chose to do the wrong thing, it not only hurts God, but it prob also an extremely unloving and discouraging thing to do to the remaining few sisters in Christ who share my view...

sigh.

im just so so so so so glad jess buddy is home (: (: (:
love her to bits and pieces (:




it's 4.30am and this is becoming my regular sleeping time. im going to die young i know it. hahaha.

luckily, no school tmr!!! (:


oh ya, and im an old 20 now ): and my hair is still spoilt from hairspray. seriously, it takes three days to wash out completely.


oh ya, and dance updates!!

gala comp 3/4 2011, partner and i placed 1st for jive, 3rd for paso and 4th for rumba.
even though the results sound worse than last time, im actually more pleased with this comp. i performed much better. just that other ppl were better lo. but at least i didnt let myself and partner down (: