OH YA I remember jess made PAPER CARTON shoes and wore them to dinner and dance.

hahaha, goshhh, miss her!!!


and i still have her gym flipbook!! i never gave it back to her!!! hahaha



all time fav photo of jess and i!

i am clearing emails!!!

and its awesome cos im finding little tidbits of stuff that are making me smile (:



if i remember correctly, this is jessica's illustration of 'Wail' and the email header was 'Depths of despair' HAHAHA, cos everytime something mildly bad happens, we'd start reciting (wrongly) the psalm whereby King David was talking abt his misery strangling him like seaweed and dragging him to the depths of despair... aiyo, i told u, we were always very bad to king david. ): haha... but its quite funny.. hahahah



hmm, jess's marvellous saving of XIUUUUU the neopet!!! hahah, i tried to crop the sides, but it reverted back to orginal when i saved it...



haha, some were sweet emails, some were sad emails...

oh! i found tons of jess's e-cards!!! and jazi's emails (: (: (:
and esther's emails!!! and i realised esther started mentoring us on 26th june 2007!!!! so long ago!!! gosh, that was when she just graduated and was starting NIE!!!! haha


OH. i found the super funny email by jess when we both did the quiz 'your type of boy'

AYE. Jess didnt answer properly at all. she wrote nonsense.

i shall show u a sample of what she wrote.


30. Singer or dancer?
- i dunnooooo....!!! aiyoh some questions annoy me. it's like asking: "what if he doesn't like beansprouts???"


40. Poem writer?
- i'm a poem writer too. some roses are purple, some violets are blue, why are there so many questions in here, I HAVE THINGS TO DO!

43. Painter?
- yes. then we can paint together. and sip coffee. and do odd things like ANSWER 50 QUESTIONS. NO LAH NOT VERY IMPORTANT LAH.



YOU SEE LAH. that girl answered them all 'nonsense-ly'
i felt so cheated for answering properly okay!!! still feeling cheated 3 years later!!!! hahaha



hmm... then there's the whole slew of UK uni emails....

planning out HK trip emails!!! (:

all the pathlight emails, whereby angelina and i would copy each other's weekly report.. haha, and planning stories like 'charlie the caterpiller' and 'odds and evens'
oh ya! while teaching in the CCK childcare recently, i ran out of work for the kids to do, so i gathered them and told them 'charlie the caterpillar'. i obviously didnt have the puppets, so i used markers and drew the animals on the board, it was quite successful!!! (:


and then there was the formation of the DJSLX_ yahoo groups!! for dawn, jess, sher, linh, xiu!! (:



oh, when i received the email for 'Pre-departure 2010 for UK students' i was realllll sad. i can't remember if i accepted NUS at that time already though. haha, i only remember being so sad to turn down Kings college.


hmm, i can't find my acceptance email from Vivalatinus, but i found one email by kim!! at one point we had 44 members!! wow! we're down to... less than 15? haha


the start of emails from jess in uk... with email headers such as 'dying from econs' or 'pool meadows busstop!'


haha, shaun's super formal emails to Viva whereby he signs off with

Best Regards,
Shaun Seah


i realised i purposely signed off with 'regards' in a reply to one of his team emails about some paso or rumba videos, just cos i thought it was funny. hahahah, he replied with another 'best regards'
HAHA. i died laughing, but he didnt know of course.


oh and i realised i havent collected my hall merit award for dance. but nevermind, i dont really care


okay! i cleared my inbox!! (:

lovelove

Jess sent me a real nice song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ


"Blessings"

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise







and im sorry my dear friend ):
but for now,perhaps this is for the best...



):

my CAP and i died together. haha, i am in danger of not being able to dance anymore.

sad as it is, this is a more familiar feeling, reminds me of RG/RJ times. haha

ended training real early, cos my hip really hurts when i settle weight on it, its becoming a sharper kind of pain, and that's bad!!! anyway, without being able to settle, i cant train much, so we just went home!

and i dropped a hole puncher on my poor toe ):

ouchhh!!!

this has got to be the sweetest!! (:









some photo editing machine combined the faces of the world's most beautiful women, so this is the final result!!!

yea, sure, all women have some beauty.

but some have a beauty that creeps up on you, while some have a beauty that simply slaps you in the face.
and beauty is like a strong light, it casts a shadow all around.

I know You're somewhere out there, somewhere far away
I want You back

partner and i are back on a busy training schedule!!! (:

our teachers are leaving this thurs and coming back on the 3rd, while partner is going to be gone from 9th onwards, and after he's back we have only 1 week to comp!!


training everydayyyy!!!!!! (:

I have been so lazy to post recently!!!

but anyway, holidays have been pretty nice so far, lots of time to dance and no need to study! (:

partner and i prac less during holidays than when during school term though. i told him we have no priorities in life. haha. and he's very busy with his hiphop stuff. so oh well.

oh ya, our car got into an accident with a lorry cos my dad braked pretty quick at a traffic junction, and the lorry was following real close, and smashed into our car!
no one was injured but the car is injured. haha, this is our little car now.



anyway it was quite nice that when my dad came back from claiming the insurance and stuff, our family gathered to pray and thank God for His protection, and that nothing happened to us (: God was looking after us (:


have been trying out standard dancing, waltz and quickstep, which is fun! (:
some dance friends have been trying out pole dancing too. i'd love to try it actually, i think it looks really fun, and i think its a good workout for core. but i also KNOW my mum would kill me first. so i gave up the idea.


loveee!

YAY!!! God is so awesome and so nice to me!!!

i have a friend from latin performance team who's also called linh!

and linh accepted Christ recently!!!!!!

I feel so blessed to find out!!! and so blessed to know two linhs who have given their lives to Christ!!! (:

i shall them latin linh and RJ linh ok!! (:

latin linh is real excited and she reminds me of RJ linh!!!!!!!!


I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! (: (: (:
i think i hugged her like 8 times in my excitement!!!

i am going to meet her for lunch soon to find out her story!!! (: (: (:

YAY!!!!!!! God is doing something in my latin team!!!

show u all real nice pictures from ballerina project!










look at those skinny ankles and perfectly arched feet!! they look so nice in ballerina slippers!!! but ballerina feet look really bad in normal shoes cos of the strange things that happen to the toes.


and im going for standard dancing tonight! going to try out waltz and quickstep! (:
i think latin is probably more fun, but it will be nice to try a little bit of standard as well (:

maybe king david is quite cool after all

today i decided that i kinda like king david after all.

if you dont know, king david counts as one of my least favourite bible heroes. cos i think he's quite bad at times, committing all the worst kind of sins, and causing his children to stumble as well.

but,i realised that its very proud of me to think that king david is a lousy bible hero.

the essence of king david's story, to me now, is probably:

1. a reminder about how any of us can easily stumble and fall into sin
if even King david, who was such a warrior for God can stumble, any of us can stumble. Therefore, there shouldnt be room for us to judge, rather we should be helping those who have fallen, back up and close to God again.

2. the importance of response to God's discipline

the reason why david is called a man after God's own heart, is probably because he always confessed his sin, and repented and sought God again. when we sin, we tend to either run away from God and hide because of guilt, or ignore God until we become numb to sin. both of which are bad responses. although of course, it would be better not to step into sin in the first place, it will be inevitable at some point of our lives, and what's most important is our response to the realisation that it is sin.


3. the extent of God's grace

and the most amazing thing about david's story, is probably God.
God is always waiting for us to come back to Him, He never gives up on us, and He always has grace to extend to us. and God always works things out for His glory, and for the good of those who love Him, even when we've gone off course and sinned.

God's grace and love is abundant and overflowing, His love covers over a multitude of sin. Thank God for that!!!




so many things have happened, and i haven't always made the best choices, sometimes cos im confused, but sometimes, i think i even purposely chose to disobey.


well, i just pray that whatever has been happening in my life will soften and deepen my heart, to drive me home to God, to teach me to love people more, to be less judgmental and proud.


The months aged me remarkably,
Though they have not made me wise;
I do know I erred irrevocably -
For that I apologize.



whatever happens, whatever i've done, i want to always choose to come back to You.
A broken spirit and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.

My dear friend,
You must know that you've hurt me so much. I have every reason not to forgive you. But I still believe that the friend I loved so much is still there somewhere, and I know that Jesus loves you.

So I forgive you. The rest is up to you.

went to work at a kindergarten today (:

the morning session was uneventful, cos it was with normal kids, real cute 3 year olds.

but wow, the afternoon session killed me. hahah, 8 in the morning, and 3 in the afternoon, but the three in the afternoon were all special needs kids. (: (: (: (:


i couldnt help smiling at all the familiar behaviour they displayed (: all the flapping, echolalia, rigidity. haha (:

one of my kids is obsessive abt closing the door, and is mesmerised by the turning of the fan. and he kept repeating 'chopsticks, gosh, that's a big one!'

and another one keeps singing.

oh btw, none of the three are very verbal. one is selectively verbal, like, he can say 'i want marshallow' and the other two dont speak much, if at all.

so its real tough. it's always easier to talk to someone who talks too much, than someone from whom it takes forever to pry their name out of them right? haha

so, there were 2 meltdowns, triggered by each other, and the other kept taking his clothes off. so we really had a tough time.

i think the kids are PL are much more privileged than these kids though, cos PL is much more well equipped, and has all the latest autism strategies, and a great integrated curriculum, plus professional social workers and psychologists.

whereas these kids are kinda like in a resource centre, it's more of helping to relieve their parents of them for a few hours twice a week. the teacher is real young, and she's trained, but doesnt quite have resources there. she tried her best to created a structured classroom, with work systems and all, but it's tough, without the proper support and resources.


but it was a good experience anyway (:
special kids really are special (: and they're always in their own world. haha

oh ya, one kid tried to eat the blackoard duster! i nearly screamed ok.
and one kid, after hauling him to wash his hands, he stuck BOTH hands right into the pot of paint again. i grabbed him and dragged him off to the sink, whereby he proceeded to splash paint and water on me. hahah so cute right.

oh and one kid whacked me on the stomach too, and i got pinched. haha, my fellow teacher got bitten and pinched too.

it brings back all the memories of PL (: which is real awesome (:
luckily i remembered to wear long pants and no dangly earrings (:

and i dug out my visual prompts from PL. but they dont have a proper system here, so visuals arent so effective, but i really dont like using physical prompts so much. it's more tiring to repeatedly visual prompt, but at least they're learning something, if i physical prompt them, chances are they're spacing out and im just moving them around, which is not helpful for them in future.

although... these kids have a pretty high degree of autism, kinda hard for them to ever be independent... but well, we never give up hope!! (:


and i confirmed my job offer from PL for the july period!!!! (:

well, it will never be the same again, but im still looking forward to being back there, with all the lovely kids, and other interns (:

first training after a long time!! (:

partner and i trained on our own before training (:

it was quite fun, although we talked abt the team and stuff for abt 2 hours, and partner led warmups for an hour, so we had abt half an hour left for real dancing. haha

then after training, partner and i continued our own training for a bit, then we played with choreoing contemp (: it is super fun dancing contemp with a partner ok (: cos we can do stunts!!! (: (: we tried a bit of swing dancing too (:

we tried this stunt:




it was pretty sucessful!! (: we managed to swing to one side and then from there, swing to the other side over his back. but i got stuck somewhere on his back, i can't land nicely yet.

i remember jess and i used to try swing dancing, but it's much more successful dancing with partner cos he's stronger i guess, IT'S SO FUN!!!!!!! (: (: (: i screamed the first time though, cos he dipped me real low and i thought he lost balance. haha

i love trying stunts btw, because it's so exciting, and because i love being carried xD so it's a good thing he likes stunts too (:

i think we look nice dancing contemp than latin eh. haha, our technique is lousier for latin than contemp hahah


the teacher is gonna assess our chacha tmr before deciding whether we should continue polishing this routine or learn a new one.

i told partner that we're not ready, but he said that we're never gonna be ready, so might as well just show her. hahah

he's so funny sometimes right. haha, but if i knew the teacher was assessing our routine tmr, i'd have picked rumba over chacha ):
chacha is the worst ): then again, we might as well start with the worst. haha


i slept 15 hours yest, but im still really sleepy, cos i had bad dreams and i kept waking up and i had a headache. so im going to sleep again! (:

lovelove!

Do you think of that someone when you hear that special melody?
I always stop and think of you
Especially when the words of love songs touch the very heart of me.
There'll be sad songs to make you cry, love songs often do


-Billy Ocean

im aching from tech class yest!
and the best thing is that im not aching on my thighs or stomach where i was being pulled around by the teacher. it's my arms that are aching!!!! and my arms did nothing except hold themselves up!!!!! i have terribly weak arms. haha

and i am so sad for mr george yeo. his speech was so sad ): then again, the WP was really strong there... i hope he decides to become president!!!

and i love yah ah mee (: he is so cute (: and i thought of jess when i saw him. he's totally jess's type (; hahaha

and im real sleepy!

watched macbeth today, which was real cool, but such a disturbing show. luckily i sat far away from the witches!!

Gym song

I found this on a gym junior's blog (:

haha, i miss gym sometimes (:




To the tune of "I Am Cow". This was for our sec 4 (batch of 07) farewell performance

RG Gym
Hear us sing
We all come from trampoline
And we all come from art gym
We get coached by Mr Teo
And we all kena bullied
RG Gym, RG gym, RG gym.

RG Gym
Teo is lame
Everybody knows his name
Conditioning all come from his brain
He has 3 sons M, M, M
And his name is also M
Marcus Teo, Martyn Teo, Malcolm Teo
MARK.

RG Tramp, RG Art
Floor beam bar vault tramp 5 parts
We train at Henry Park Primary School
We all jump and we flip
And we get cracked every week
RG Art, RG Tramp
Hear us rant.

Our capt
Is Pauline
She is pro at trampoline
Teo says she has very good feeling
Everyday after training
She will raise her arms and sing
She is Paul, she is Paul, she is Pauline.

Jessica
Is loser
She is far from a poser
And she likes to eat rice crackers
She likes sanzha and she's flex
And her straddle's impossible
She quit gym, join wushu, we say "Boohoo".

She is dao
She is Shin
And she owes Steph bubble tea
Everyone thinks she's very scary
She join gym in RJC
So we love her more than Jess
Mak Shinyi, Mak Shinyi, you're the best.

Shermine Kwok
Hear us talk
You look good in ankle socks
And we all think your dancing rocks
You know ballet, chinese dance
And you've never been to France
So Steph wants you to go to Bangkok.

Stacey Goh
You're so chio
Even more so next to Teo
Next time boyfriend sure very macho
You join rhythmic and tramp
You're in cheerleading also
You're so flex, Steph feels like a dodo.

Joy Chua
Hear us sing
JOY TO THE WORLD
JOY CHUA IS GONE
LET HEAVEN'S ANGELS SING
AND EVERYBODY WILL BE VERY HAPPY
AND TEO AND PAUL WILL SING
AND TEO AND PAUL WILL SING
AND TEO AND PAUL WILL SING.
Joy Chua Hear us sing again
You have long legs like Yinxin
When you jump you look very thin
You join wushu, volleyball
It's no wonder cos you're tall
You are Joy, You bring Joy- AWAY.

Shihui
You're in too
We've never forgotten you
And we know you really love us too
You always come and support
When we have competition
We are cows, we are cows, we are mean cows.

RG Gym
Hear us shriek
Listen to us for a bit
This is our life and we're proud of it
We have juniors, seniors, coaches
And you cannot come and poach us
I love gym, you love gym, we love gym.

Went out with angelina, wilfred and shaun yest! (:

and angelina does a better job of blogging abt it. so i shall just steal her picture and summarise (:

we went to ikea to eat meatballs! (it's $4 for 10 every tues till 31st july)
then we went to love the world, but it was closed down ):
so we went to cathay to eat ben and jerry's ice cream
and then we watched a movie about a train repeatedly getting blown up maybe like 10 times in the movie? oh, it's called source code btw.



we are happy at B and J! (:

moved out of hall today!! (:

took me about 8 luggage bag trips, and in the end, my mum asked my uncle to bring his lorry over. hahah


and i packed clothes today.
only some clothes. the rest still sit in this overflowing heap at the corner of the house.

am glad to be home (:

but i miss my hall too ):


and im going to watch lion king!!! (: (: (:


can't wait till dance starts again. im getting bored at home, but i don't want to spend money by going out! haha


lovelove

im home to my real home!!! (:

my real home is so clean and bright and full of mirrors, it's so reflective. i feel a bit blinded. haha (:


i love my home (:
and my bed
and especially my awesome toilet with the entire wall being mirror (:


i'll tell u something my mummy said (:


i told her tues im coming back late, cos im going out with friends.
she said: "wah, come home got house rules ah. means got curfew. if come home late will become a frog."


HAHAHA

lovelove (: