well, i guess im finally at NUS, and its a reality. hahah, took me long enough to realise that ah.

module bidding tmr. haha, i really dont feel excited abt NUS at ALL.
and honestly, i dont feel very excited or very happy abt my scholarship either. i feel really terrible to feel like that too, because, its so... ungrateful...

but it feels more like a burden to me than a blessing. with all the requirements they impose on me, and im afraid that i'll find geog at uni boring, haha plus they want us to do certain modules that i was so planning to skip, like GIS systems, and fieldwork. haha, and everything i do, i have to ask for approval from them, before i apply for my student exchange, if i wanna do a minor in something else, if i wanna apply to a special term...

and i have to clock up a number of modules for english on top of geog, so i cant do electives i like.


and of course, the number one fear that i'll somehow get myself kicked out because i dont make the grades or something. and it'll be so embarassing, i'll never live it down. hahah.



and i dont like my new school very much anyway. sigh.

seeing a familiar person or hearing a familiar voice is like a breath of fresh air nowadays.

as my friend said 'too many new people is killing me.' hahah



Dear Lord,

I think that i have been a little tired, and a little sad. i think i could do with a little help in getting through the next 3 years. but that's a long time away. for now, i think, i could make do with a hug. and just so You still know, I love You. goodnight.

love,
shermine

whoa i just put up so many pics on fb i amaze myself! haha, xiu should be proud of me for uploading! haha, im the first to upload this time!!! faster than xiu and jess :D hahah

anyway, children's church was sweet as always (: its a good thing i joined really, if not i might be even more sad to leave my pathlight darlings. haha

lovelove!

Goodbye love.

wah, just thinking about going back to school is very tiring already. haha, tried to familiarize myself with the mapping modules system and the bidding system today, and tried to find out what exactly I must take to graduate, the number of modules to take each sem and also must tie in with moe's requirements that i take 4 modules of english besides doing geog. hahah, i got more and more confused!!

haha, i think i finally figured that i must do abt 5 modules a semester, which is kinda like JC then, since we had 5 subjects. hahah, so not really just doing geog la, haha, still can do english, and prob some languages, or sociology or something. haha, thats pretty cool i guess but the only thing really exciting is NO MATH! forever and ever and ever!!! hahah

but really, i have nothing to look forward to the next half of the year, hahah,everything is such a disaster now, my best buddy is going far far away, things are not going well with him, im actually quite sad, awww, but as my mother told me this morning:

In every thing, give thanks to the Lord

not FOR every thing, but IN everything. haha

haha, ok, im very tired from thinking, and from reading pages and pages of small font on NUS stuff.



I shall just trust God to open and close doors as He wills, not as I want Him to.

though... its really really hard, im struggling so so much.
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but anyway, I still love Jesus best!


lovelove!

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